because we were really bad ass in the previous life.
I honestly believe that my mental illness was a lesson from god on how to live a decent life and be humble.
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I never believed in that. When youāre born again youāre innocent, a completely different person. What good comes from punishing someone who doesnāt understand what theyāre being punished for? Itās just prolonging the cycle of suffering.
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Iāve always wondered if the vampires didnāt like the people who abused stimulants because when they sucked their blood, it speeds up their time too.
Sux to be like that, with living forever and all, to have time sped up for nothingā¦
I think MI is simply a brain glitch. It happens sometimes. It can be caused by stress in life (my case) or just genetics. I donāt think God is punishing us. I hope not. I donāt believe in a Supreme Being. I think āourā consciousness is God and God is all about Love
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My mom also says God is love. However, I worry that he isnāt.
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Unusual beliefs! Try not to get too religious here.
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I remember your delusion so I can see why youāre afraid. I think God is all of our consciousness alive and that have ever lived. It is pure rationale, logic, emotional maturity and love. Love is logical. It makes sense for us to be kind and respectful to each other. It is science and it is love. I call it āSheā, even though She is not a Supreme Being but rather a consciousness of all peopleā¦ She loves us. Just my opinion. She is not punishing, angry, jealous or bitter. She is pure logic and love is logical.
Edit; I am not religious at all. I donāt believe in a āGodā (Supreme Being). I just call consciousness āGodā for lack of a better description.
In my delusion, God, Jesus, and the Devil all hate me and are persecuting me. So I just worry that itās true.
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I know it is impossible to simply tell someone not to believe a delusion since I am delusional myself and believe it 100% but FWIW, I doubt anyone hates you. I, myself donāt believe it.
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I donāt believe my schizophrenia is the result of a punishment from god.
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good to hear thereās a positive for you,
This is my thinking on the subject
God for me=
When I lost grip of ground and gravity, in insanity, I started to take a religious persuit
Reasons being -
-Insanity was a unknown place to me
The what,where,whens,howās, and whys
-the wickedness of madness, the dark
maddening place it is (accepting a cause)
-beliefs of morality
-convictions of madness
So I went down that bunny hole,
First god then the devil like many others.
Come to find my religion was just divergent ties to reality, tied causes of reasoning for what I was experiencing.
Basically my insight after that chapter of my life could be made out like this.
Religion in madness
Is just madness in religion
"Pretty much the experiences of this illness in a religious form of thinking
All these ideas where just my madness, but the weight of ideas and beliefs of religion had it tied in my mind nice and good
Truth be told, I donāt know when it comes to the bigger picture
They say God can make the bad into good because good always wins, glad you can make something good of it
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Hard to know if we attract this crap subconsciously or are just pawns on a string. Think Iām getting to point of not really trying to work it all out and just make the most of it all.
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Gawd wants me to butter that pile āoā tasty Toast.
Shut up and eat some before the disco ball drops on our head.
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Deletedā¦ Changed my mind about this post. Might be triggering to some.
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Iāve found such solace in Godās presence in my life. I donāt care if itās delusion. (Although I donāt think it is)
This world causes me pain and grief. This world without the presence of God is, for me, utterly unbearable.
I do question why. Other people seem to skim through life without abuse or disorderā¦why??? The answer is hidden from me, and yet Iām convinced it has nothing to do with God having a malicious intent towards me personally. God is the one who saves me.
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I like to believe we were given difficult life paths because our story helps others in some way. We inspire people to keep fighting, because they see us facing so much adversity every day and not giving up.
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I personally donāt think that our illness is caused or related to God in any way. I believe in God and me having this illness is part of his plan for me. Just accept it as it is. It isnāt a punishment. Maybe having this illness kept me from losing faith in him. Maybe if I didnāt have it I would have become and addict and had a much worse life. 2 cents.
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I would have died from drugs or ended up in prison had I not had a psychotic break. It ruined my life and saved my skin at the same time.
This is what I believe to be my āsecond chanceā
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I only look at my illness as a requirement to be wise and effective in life. I live on disability sure, but my decision making skills and adittude have changed alot with the onset of this abusive illness. Iām getting stronger, smarter, overall just plain better from it through the accusations the hallucinations make I reflect and improve alot. But itās really a learning process, I have a long way to go still.
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Ok, this is very close to what Iāve been thinking. But I think I live second life since 2004. If god wants me to switch from a Heavy guitar to an acoustic one, then NO WAY! Both are good and God should approve that too.
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