My family is very high achieving too. I’m totally ■■■■■■ too, but my family loves me and it’s nice. My little brother hugged me the other day and said he was proud of me because I’m battling this illness. I hope you have some consolation as well.
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I’m glad to hear you overcame drug addiction MeghillaGorilla1. I can relate to being normal before the illness and also people having high hopes for us. It really brings me down if I let it. I too have suicidal thoughts from time to time but I try not to dwell on them. Today I ate turkey so I’m in a good mood but seriously, I feel like I lost a part of me I’ll never recover, as if I’m a shell of my former self. I miss being normal. I never thought I’d be who I’ve become. I took being normal for granted. Oh well, at least the turkey is still delicious.
It good to always look at the upside of misfortunes. I too have greater appreciation for life n belief in God follow my illness. It’s a strange feeling
You know don’t ya, if I was capable of crying I would be bursting in to tears knowing how good my life was before I’m just a zombie model now
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I’ve been thinking of this a lot. Does part of you feel grateful for the experience f a second chance? Like the memories sustain you in a way when you remember them?
Also, is that the reason you’ve had so many relapses, because you had one success so you kept trying to recreate it?
I hope you’ll find a focus and set goals for yourself that are geared toward success. I’m pretty impressed with myself that I stayed alive. That’s the foundation that I build from. Shifting your focus from what you were, what you lost, to where you can go now might be helpful.