It has been 30 days that weed is legal here and I am clean and sober. I really can’t get by getting high, I have gone mad and I have to hide it by acting. Drugs would make it all too apparent, the drugs would erase the tiny bit of persona I have.
It is hard being schizo affective and an addict, but today I can enjoy life without an intoxicant. There is no other way for me. Anyone here dually diagnosed?
Yes, i too am an addict and have sz. Its hard to manage sometimes. When my sz symptoms get bad, my urges to use increase too. I have 2 1/2 years clean from everything. Drugs ruined my life once, and i almost lost everything a second time. So im determined not to allow my urges to overcome me.
I’m an addict. Have been since I was 13. Still struggle.
Smoked crack for four years in the late eighties. Got clean and sober in AA in 1990 and I haven’t touched alcohol or drugs for the past 33 years.
Yes. I’ve been clean 6 years. Thankfully don’t even have the urge anymore.
“Semi” recovering Alcoholic. I say semi - cos i will still have the odd sociable pint with my twin brother when he comes over. Usually im drinking non-alcoholic wine, which is pricey.
Yeah ive dabbled in weed - but i can seriously take it or leave it. Frankly im too bloody tight to spend the money on the stuff, when i could have a 12oz steak instead.
I’m also an addict. I did meth for the last ~4 years and it absolutely made my schizophrenia horrible–damn near constant voices, voices so loud I couldn’t sleep for days even after I stopped smoking sometimes, deep psychosis that gripped me so hard I started doing absolutely inane things in response to the voices and caused me to fight with or not trust many people I loved and cared about. Nearly destroyed my relationship with my little brother.
I finally got off it (for good) just like a couple of months ago, and my GOD, the clarity! And I don’t even hear voices anymore barely; they’re super quiet when they do happen. I mostly just get musical and gibberish hallucinations again like when I first got diagnosed in 2017, and even those are rare now with meds.
Finally realized that ■■■■ is a dragon I can’t and never should have tangoed with and have zero plans to do it ever again because I recognize it definitely was what worsened my schizophrenia and that it wasn’t just coincidence that I had been crazier these past few years. Killed all desire to even want to smoke it.
I still struggle with other (lighter?) addiction, like cigarettes.
Well done for quitting it. That stuff is from the Devil. I know a few that would go without electric, just for a pipe. Tried it once, and it scared the crap out of me, thought i was having a heart attack.
I quit drinking 10 years ago. I do stupid stuff when I drink and it makes me paranoid. Was paranoid enough already. So I just quit.
Heard that weed makes you paranoid too so too afraid to try that so couldn’t tell you. But I was watching Judge Mathis the other day and he says that’s an urban legend. He said cocaine makes you paranoid. But I ain’t trying any of that stuff.
Schizophrenia is two bag fulls already without substance abuse.
Good on you for staying sober.
I live in a red state. Will probably never be legal recreationally here. At least not for a few years.
Huh, after I got sick weed always made me paranoid but cocaine never did. Just my personal experience. Now I’m thinking of Goodfellas and how Henry Hill got paranoid from cocaine.
Yeah, some people have died from it the first time they smoked it.
cocaine makes me anxious crack does nothing and weed makes me feel more normal