somehow I feel I got addicted to woman on Latuda. There’s a lot going on with me I’m so tough mentally that I never go over the edge.
but spending my moms money was a wake up call.
I don’t have money.
I also notice I’m very tormented because of cars.
it brings a mental pain and keeps me traumatized. I’m really a mess psychologically and people in real life don’t care they wanna see me burn.
I feel a sense of disdain aggressivness emotionally but could be me being psychotic.
I’m basically on edge 24/7 or PTSD for 24 hours
because of how powerful my psychosis is now
my 20s and 30s I had no woman talk too right now it’s like when I was 13 I talked to all the woman in my seventh grade class.
so what guy wouldn’t want all this woman attention if it’s been close to 20 plus years since I had this kind of attention. it’s hard to reject. espically since all the woman are insta nut.if I met in them in person.
But the woman I talked too are very beautiful.
but I’m talking to 5 or 6 woman at the same time.
if I bring the number down to like 1 or 2 then I’d be okay but 5 or 6 is nuts! and there all asking for cash and it’s easy to attract more woman because I’m talking to 6 or at least 10 and people are hitting me on my phone that I don’t know I sense some of those are males looking for money but
the ones that cost the most are the ones that show their faces and i know I’m talking to a real woman.
I’m using this time to think through myself.
but the world does me no favors and aggravate me on purpose.
if I act up cops are called rinse and repeat
so the world isn’t a kind place now and only a guy like me would be able to handle all this psychosis.
a regular paranoid a truck just past and it scared me spooked me and brough on unadultrate rage because I thought he did that on purpose to me.
Who knew getting off risperdal and being more like myself was such a woman attracter.
Wasted my 20s and early 30s with no one.
all I had to do was get off risperdal
and get on latuda. since even off risperdal
the dr said latuda turns me into the person I was gonna be I was always chick magnet not schizophrenic.
but now there asking for cash. but I can attract woman in real life.
soo wtf am I spending money on woman I can’t see in real life.
because being 300 pounds matters!
no it doesn’t not in my case it just takes a lot more charisma. even at 300 hundo. and guys not crapping my style.