I’ve been working part time for about a month now. I feel useful for the first time in almost 2 decades. i don’t do anything particularly hard or interesting but I am part of the system now, doing something, just not being on disability and taking without giving back. It makes me feel good. And the extra money is really nice too.
I’m not disparaging anyone that is on disability and can’t work,.I was in the position for a long time so I completely understand it. But if you can get a job that you are capable of doing I think it will boost your self esteem. I no longer feel completely useless.
I only work part time, and I have had some bad days, some days I get home and I am tired, especially since I have insomnia and on occasion only get 4-5 hours sleep before work, but it feels good to know I am doing something.
I don’t know if i will be able to work permanently going forward, there is always the possibility I will have a psychiatric downturn and have to quit, but for now it feels good to do something other than sitting on my butt watching TV and surfing the Internet all the time.