II miss working. So much of my self esteem was tied up in my jobs. So much of my identity was about the work I did and how much money I made. Now I make nothing. It sucks being poor. It sucks having to decide which item you can buy. Working gave me a sense of purpose and made me feel like I was helping people in the line of work that I did. But when I tried to go back to work I became overwhelmed just at the application process. I wonder if that will change at some point. I wonder if I get better than I am now or if this is as good as it gets. I wonder if I am permanently disabled. I wish it didn’t have to be like this always. Do you think you are permanently disabled or do you think you’ll be able to go back to work?
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I’ve tried to work twice in the last two years. First time I had to quit because of health reasons after 6 weeks. Second time after 3 weeks. I hope to work again some day but I think that will be unlikely in the near future.
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I think you should try being self-employed, as you can make your own rules and choose what jobs you do and don’t.
If you’re starting from where you are now, you have nothing to lose.
Could be something simple as gardening if you enjoy being outside.
Here you can earn about £15-20 per hour doing that. Some customers have their own equipment as well, so you could find those people, and you won’t have to buy all the tools.
Just an idea.
You could try internet work?
My cousin works for a company I think called office angels, and she is basically a self employed work from home receptionist and admin assistant for companies that pass the work on.
There are countless things you can try.
I hope you find fulfilment in something new.
Myself, I have just come out of a salaried position for the last 6 years I could not cope with anymore, and since March I have been building driveways and patios for people I know.
I am going to start a Nursing course in September.
Confidence is key. I lost my confidence when I left my old job, but I am slowly building back up again.
Remember there are so many things you can do, and it might not work out on the first thing you try, but keep trying
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I think I’ve gone long enough that I want to try again, but I don’t seriously think that I can manage a set schedule.
I think I might be able to do something if they allowed you to be self employed. Like maybe I could mail letters or something, but waking up on a schedule I don’t know if I can manage.
Waking up and going to bed is literally like the hardest part of my day psychologically.
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I would like to be a dental receptionist maybe.
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Speaking personally; you can’t go back to what you have never done. An abject failure to see what difficulties I have ,and thus provide the necessary help and support, put paid to that.
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I would like to learn Medical billing and coding . People accuse of being gay and turn away from me. Talk â– â– â– â– about me I just want to work at home .
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Unless a new medication comes out for negative symptoms and that sz isn’t brain damage, yes.
My situation didn’t change since I was diagnosed 9 years ago. It won’t get fixed by magic.
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No it takes a lot of work to get into a better routine.
If you wait for something that is not real like magic, you won’t get very far.
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I have always worked, even when really bad shape, no support, so I would be homeless if I did not
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Being without work or an engagement truly sucks. It not just self esteem but self worth. I don’t think at 50, I am going to find work. I would like to be working; for the financial benefits and peace of mind.
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I might not go back to my previous job but yes maybe in a couple of months when I feel ready to look i will … it gives me a sense of independence … and it makes me feel good to buy myself treats and go travel
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i think so, because i miss the money, even though i prefer my current life, with all my free time. if i made another $700-$800 dollars in ssdi i would stay out of the work force.
im debating on wether or not to go back to work full time or part time. i might as well choose full time work, although i would have a really busy schedule, to be able to garden, and workout each day. wouldn’t have enough free time to play guitar or watch a ballgame or movie at night.
im waiting for the covid wave to die down before i start putting in applications.
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Sure why not. I thought about HVAC and then Elon Musk comes up with a better, more profitable idea a few months later. Can’t imitate the best. I really don’t know how to market myself or even make a dollar anymore.
The odds are stacked against me. Honestly, I’ll probably never work or perhaps never go to school again. If things go right, I’ll end up inheriting a little amount of money, but I don’t know if I could keep my SSI. The lawyer says I might or that I can at least keep medi-cal. Medical insurance is extremely expensive. I probably won’t be able to afford brand names like Vraylar, which helps me. Hopefully, it will be in 15+ years and it will be generic. If not, I’ll have to go back on Abilify or Risperdal or some crap.
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I’m studying to be a dental receptionist but I’m really nervous I’ll suck at my job and let the stress of my mental health get to me.
There is a part of me that wants to just stay on disability because the only jobs I’ve ever been successful at are restaurant and housekeeping jobs which are still stressful/have to be part-time.
This is my last attempt at school, I’m 30 years old and I have minimal education/skills but if I can at least finish the program, I’ll be proud of myself for finishing.
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I hope I can go back to work (or better yet, finish my degree first).
I worry my symptoms are way too strong to be able to work basically any job; I literally never stop hallucinating hardly–and the hallucinations stress me to high hell as it is–on top of severe social anxiety which has only gotten worse since my schizophrenia has gotten worse.
It’s shot my working memory to ■■■■, too. I struggle a lot harder to remember what I was doing if I don’t take care to finish a task immediately. I end up word salading because I pause too long for some reason and seem to straight up forget what I was talking about in the middle of it because of trying to remember a word and end up smashing “edited” sentences together.
Multifaceted verbal instructions are a no-go because I’ll forget part of the instructions almost immediately if I don’t write them down. I make a billion to-do lists because I tend to absentmindedly forget to do something I wanted to do if I try to just commit it to memory normally.
I really hope meds can help reverse some of the cognitives alongside brain training exercises. I’ll be sad if I’ve lost a large chunk of my intellect forever.
I have disappointed my younger self so badly.
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I went back to work. Not out of the woods yet though. I don’t have my job all figured out yet.
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I miss working. But it was never stable. I hope i will work in a pharmacy. My inner voice tell me that i will fail… 
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I used to be an architect…can’t stand volunteering…don’t have the concentration to work…so I’m on disability soon to be social security in the next ten years…
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I don’t think I’ll ever go back to work.
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