I was having a losing streak in stocks, and wrote about it here before.
But, now, I have finally getting winners. The key is to stretch the winners and cut the losses, and with a decent win percentage, you should be in the money.
I am feeling good regarding this, but health-wise, sometimes I get intrusive thoughts, and I wonder why suddenly I am getting intrusive thoughts lately, or more than the thoughts, I am getting fear of intrusive thoughts, thinking that an intrusive thought may occur the next moment. I am hoping there is no OCD, I am tired of these labels anyway, I think it is just one grand, king-like illness that nobody has figured out yet, which includes a cluster of symptoms, and these thoughts are one in the cluster.
I personally use something like trauma to explain this fear in me. But I have so much positive support to not worry about this. I am replacing positive experiences with these traumatic experiences. Now I am thinking about all the good thoughts and experiences that will occur in the next moment.
I also seem to notice that I feared new traumatic experiences that I never had before just continuing to happen in my life. I am now excited for new unexpected fortunes to keep happening in my life instead. I also now seem to be able to realize support for my life being for me and not against me in anyway. I now am able to see support in so many diverse ways now. @angledangle do you have any support for you to succeed in life or see it from life in any way?
I was trying to explain how it seemed like people or society did not accept me and always wanted more from me. More work more relationships more accomplishments more agreement and things. Now it seems like people or society have a genuine support for me to be successful with myself. But I do respond to medication and therapy also. I see highly successful people going out of their way to help me reach any achievement they have reached that I desire too also achieve. I replaced the negative fearful traumatic thoughts with having things that I love in life. I would love to be financially dependent and I love racing remote control cars and bicycles and motorcycles. I would love to have a significant other in my life. So I replace the fear of Schizophrenic symptoms to the fear of not being able to do what I love or would love to be doing. I would rather be racing remote control cars being paranoid instead of sitting around saying I am too paranoid to race remote controlled cars for example. And for the same example I would love to race remote controlled cars without being paranoid from SZ even more. And I am finding out it is not impossible for me to both race rc cars and not have constant SZ symptoms at the same time. After having positive experiences with say racing rc cars I am replacing the I am too paranoid to race because it feels so unbearable with SZ symptoms. To now saying it was too unbearable for me too not race rc cars to now it is unbearable to sit around and not do things. I guess finding things that I love to do has helped me change my fears and complaints.
I once went to a safari in Dubai. I got a lot of fear going in the desert safari, but eventually, once the initial phase of fear went by, I felt pretty thrilled.