Forgetting easily/ bad memory

School and Work
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My brain is a bit of a mess paranoia etc aside also.

I went to Agricultural college and can not remember a thing from it and i even got top grades in some subjects.

I studied maths in human university and all i remember is thats when my voices started then.

I cant remember basics one learnt at primary school.

I studied aged care but have not been able to work with it cause i cant hold conversation etc.social difficulties etc.

A year ago or so i studied anatomy again and a few other subjects to try and refresh and remember but i cant remember what i learnt.
My mind is blank.

I recently read a article about water and knew all about it and now … blank i dont know anything about it anymore.

This is so embaressing in conversations with people because i cant hold conversations.

I can only talk simple talk but i can not talk or keep up with anything fancy, intellectual or so forth.

I cant remember names of basic trees every one knows despite once knowing their latin names.

It can be humiliating, embaressing and one can feel and be rideculed for it too.

I find it horrid and it affects my socialising a lot and reasons i isolate are probably 2 reasons mainly One paranoia and thoughts i think are real that people do to me, attack , steal etc etc and 2 forgetting my education or knowledge i once had or not being educated enough to hold conversations that are pretty basic even and that my brain is pretty messed up and i can get confused, overwhelemed, paranoid, need leave situation n people etc

I remember how to knit back n forth but only the basic stitch and i cant follow patterns but im so proud of this “little thing” that I can do.

I can cook , ride, etc and am grateful for what i can do.
I want to say Thank you to God every day for what i can do and be grateful for it but socialising is difficult.

I avoid watching news cause a news person was attacking me and being jealous and throwing tantrums and being unprofessional and i could of changed chanel but i just stopped watching tv instead.

fish oil capsules make me sick but i read they are good.
I just cant take them as they make me feel sick.

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I have false memories. That messes with my concept of self.

Jayster

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But do you remember what you studied at school etc and what you hear on news, peoples names etc?

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Im sorry to hear that. I was a mess a year ago. I suffered from paranoi too but I overcame it. I sometimes forget things and my memory havent fully recovered. I want to try Sarcosine its an amino acid it help with some negative symptoms of Sz.

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If you’re looking for Omega3 oil and fish oil makes you sick you can get it from Flaxseed oil capsules I believe.

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I’m the same. I dont experience hallucinations or delusions unless a relapse but the false memories don’t stop from morning till night. It’s a bugger.

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