I started sleeping quite early yesterday, but I woke up in the morning and I felt extremely depressed. Without my meds I can not sleep at all. However, after several hours of this depression I took few nicotine gums and my depression went away and I had energies to visit my father at the elderly care facility. He will be 80 years old on Monday, but he did not remember my name and said his brother’s name when I asked who I was.
I have felt a little lonely lately, because I basically live alone and have no real physical friends. My psych nurse knows me the best, because I have seen this person for many years. Sometimes I just feel calling the acute number to discuss and chat. I just need to struggle with these voices and my depression. Depression can be so bad that the only thing you want is to sleep.