I’m not talking about the gooey feelings of love or anything, but do you feel things? Or are you numb?
Today I sat in the shade under a tree and I just felt it, like, summer up close.
Then my dog and I walked on a path that was mostly shady, and I felt so close to have a feeling.
But not really a feeling.
What would it be?
About 2009. My tdoc talked me into joining a offline support group… With the group leader I had a deep emotional reaction to her the first I met her. . I literally felt sparks between us. I hadn’t really had a emotional reaction to anything since the 80’s. When I told my tdoc she said talk to my pdoc about reducing my meds. It’s a long story and I’ll cut it short. I’m mostly back on the same levels but my emotions are like a roller coaster now. But I’m also dealing with some protracted grief among other things. As lost way to many people between 2009 and 2012ish.
As if love is some sickness that we create!
Bah!
Same here. I’ve got a lot to deal with. Nothing that the right music can’t help with, though!
What you got on for music?
The Smiths’ debut album!
Oh yeah? An oldie but a goodie.
Pertaining to my mental state i usually feel rage.
do you? You dont come across like that. I come across like rage, when really I’m totally relaxed, hehe.
Thats good that you are relaxed,I constantly feel a mental invasion that I call mental rape and its not a visual or auditory hallucination but a ALL ENCOMPASSING feeling that I just can’t shake.
I think that those poor souls that do and say harmful things while psychotic do those things as a way of striking back and unfortunately innocent people are sometimes involved.
hmmm, I never did or said anything while psychotic that affected innocent people, but I think I can imagine what you mean.
I don’t usually feel anything except when I’m depressed, then I really feel it. On my happiest days I’m neutral, on days like today I feel like %%%%
hey, yeah, I don’t know if that is a real feeling though to feel like crap, I mean, maybe it would be consider feeling down, but those are all mental feelings that stem from illness. I really mean, like feeling in tune with your surroundings, your existence, your body, a feeling that seems almost profound.
Some days the only emotion I feel is depression. Others I just don’t feel anything. I love my partner I know it, but its hard for me to sense feelings in return.
think its the meds that numb our senses, idk why they do that, i just know that when i was taking risperidone i was like a zombie with flat effect, is it us or the meds?
i just know that when i was put on this med i am have a better time, can think and feel and i am almost fearless which can have its advantages.
Yeah, I’m mixed both days between feeling good, and feeling removed from everything. It’s sort of a duality.
I felt the flat affect on risperidone the first and second time I was on it. The third not so much.
The only thing I really feel any more is depression. I’m pretty much numb to everything else. I’m on abilify, which is supposed to act as an antidepressant, but only if you are taking another antidepressant with it, and I’m not. When I was taking other antidepressants with it, I felt nothing. I don’t want to go back on the other antidepressants though because they gave my horrible nightmares every single night of being eaten alive by dinosaurs. I guess sometimes I feel love towards my family and relatives.
I have deep feelings of anger and agony and also empathy for severely mentally ill people. But that empathy has a short half life when I see people with the same illness I have do retarded crap when I don’t.
I sometimes feel quite numb- I felt numb for the last few hours until I read this. Yeah I have cried from stories of people with scz and I live in pain and get angry very easily.
I was a very gentle and nice person before this ■■■■. I had a dark side with the martial arts and lifting and crap but I was planning on ROTC not ■■■■■■■ psychosis. I became dangerous when I became scz. I was delusional and extremely fit and trained in Krav Maga and actually was good at it. I exercised excessively out of agitation and paranoia. I remember going to the gym late at night and working out for hours.
I’m getting derailed and ruminating.
Yeah I feel pissed and ■■■■■■ in the head most of the time, but some things make me happy. Learning makes me happy, I also feel happy around my friends. Other than that it’s just schizophrenia and anxiety. Productivity, socializing, and then pain. I have chronic nightmares.
Me too.
Impending doom and dread. Depression.
I’ve been much more active lately and it’s helped. I’ll wake up, have coffee, put headphones and ipod on, and try to work on something from dawn till dusk. If I take off the headphones I’ll immediately get in my head.
Today was a manic Bad Brains day.
Seems like there more I stay away from any type of large lcd screens, the better I do.