It’s hard for me to believe I ever get psychotic manic depressed. Hope this lasts.
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Same boat as you. When I’m on my meds I’m normal other than a little bit of anxiety and occasional depressive thoughts. When i’m off them…whole different story. Even if I lower the dose in half…I’m completely psychotic and heavily depressed in less than a week.
When I lowered the meds, I was feeling much better, only a little sad, but I felt kind of a freedom in feelings, and less than a zombie, I can’t describe it. But I became a lot psychotic just as you and I ended up in a clinic. 
Not that now I am not psychotic, I still am, but in a more controlled phase…but I miss this freedom of a lower dose…
Good for you @anon80629714, I do wish you well