Feeling relieved about no more ending it thoughts

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4 weeks of no suicidal thoughts its so good to be alive free from those thoughts they were really weighing me down for years.
I still have paranoia sometimes and live mostly like a recluse because of severe anxiety which escalates my symptoms if i do anything too stressful but im feeling bit better for the past 4 weeks. I just do what i can cope with like going outside maybe 2 hours a week, chat to relatives on phone once a week, do housework. I dont do much really but its better than nothing
Feeling quite optimistic today about no more suicidal thoughts, i just hope it stays this way

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Glad your doing better. :grin::grin::grin:

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oh yayyyy!! happy for you…build your hope banks by doing stuff you like.

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Thanks @GrayBear and @jukebox i feel like ive turned a new leaf

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Not been getting bad thoughts about my mum either. I did get worried about cameras in the flat the other night and was going to cancel my broadband but my hubby got me through it. Honestly i must stress the life out of him sometimes.
Whenever i get negative about myself and the way i look being overweight or extremely anxious about going out im starting to turn it around and change the way i think so that i can do it. Its the same with suicidal thoughts, i started telling myself nope im not going to end it. I kept saying this to myself and trusted myself more and more and now i don’t get those thoughts

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I guess im not getting intrusive thoughts as much.
I feel really happy about things rn

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Glad you feel better.

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Well i still am pretty numb emotionally and i have a lot of work to do but theres a glimmer of hope here. I can see some light at the end of the tunnel

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I commend you for turning the corner anyways…I remember the first taste of hope I had after my second attempt was walking in the front yard and my landlady had planted a bed of tulips…I stood there crying I was so happy when I saw the tulips…I never looked back…keep your chin up and fight fight fight for hope.

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Thanks @jukebox im okay ish i will hold onto hope and keep looking forward

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So happy to hear this :slightly_smiling_face: glad you’re out of that dark place… Remember these times if you ever find yourself there again God forbid. It will get better :slightly_smiling_face::clap:

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