Keep going. Also keep in my mind that just because you can’t do it in the stipulated time doesen’t mean you are not worthy. Many people use some extra time to finish their education for various reasons with or without mental problems.
I finished my degree as a healthshop worker, but I had to use a extra semester to get there, but I did it in the end. Just do the best you can and hopefully you will get there. And even if you don’t there are always options.
Im just really down on myself. Im gonna keep trying but in the end Im afraid that Im just not cut out for it
Ive been having technical problems and Im simply not able to solve them. Working on it from home doesnt help either, its like my apartment is becoming my whole world, and its very hard to concentrate
Are you on a path you have chosen or did someone choose it for you? Having the drive to complete an education has a lot to do with personal interests rather than family demands. Imho.
I can tell you with 100% certainty that every single grad student feels this way through the majority of their schooling. You are not alone. You are very capable, but it is okay to lean on any supports you can get, through special accommodations, family, school counselors, etc. I recently had a near panic attack because I forgot the deadline of one of my assignments and ended up turning it in late. I thought my prof would be very disappointed and mark me down. Instead, she said it was totally understandable and happens to everyone.
You have very high standards for yourself. I bet your professors see that. They also know that not everyone’s standards are so high.
I can respect why you may feel that way. But if you are grateful to your dad and once you graduate hopefully the feelings of guilt will be reduced or gone.
Kudos to you for working towards something though.
My friends have said they feel that way too. Idk why I think my imposter syndrome is somehow real and I actually did make it here on a fluke. I def didnt cheat my way here
Idk I cant even function let alone do a masters thesis. I cant even do laundry. I think Im still bad but not hospital bad
Just try to give yourself imposter syndrome about faking imposter syndrome. “Gosh, all these other people actually have imposter syndrome, they must mean it more than me. I probably am actually totally qualified and don’t deserve to feel like an imposter at all”
You’ve managed to do a highly technical graduate degree while living overseas in not one, but two different foreign countries, far away from family. Oh, and all during a deadly pandemic. And you managed all of this while living with a serious mental illness.
You’re not a fraud @zwolfgang You’re a remarkable young man with astonishing tenacity and fortitude.
P.S. All graduate students have doubts and insecurities. You are not alone.
I really appreciate the kind words and confidence. I guess Im just not doing well mentally right now. But Im determined to do this, and you guys helped a bunch with motivation!
You deserve to be here. You’re needed here. Words to live by: Learn to do something you love, and you’ll never have to work a day in your life. I wish I hadn’t been mentally ill so I could have been a journalist, a job where I would do a lot of writing. I’m an aspiring writer, and having a job where I could have written a lot sounds very good to me right now. I have a little trouble with basic stuff, like usage. I would have so much better usage if I could have written a lot as a journalist. I think I would have liked a job like that.
“The problem with the world these days is that all of the intelligent people are filled with doubt, while all of the idiots are filled with confidence.”
Somethin’ like that.
You have wonderful talents, dude. It’s all going to work out for you in the end. It’s written in the stars. Don’t be afraid of your own destiny.
Thanks @crimby thats cool that you wanna be a journalist, my sister is too! Im trying to be a nuclear engineer, maybe get a doctorate someday
Wise words @anon39054230 I wish I fully believed that was my destiny. My destiny seems uncertain from my standpoint, couold go either way but maybe Im just tripping myself out lol
I mean, if nothing else, your skill with music production proves you have a lot of natural talent with mathematics and pattern recognizion, which are super important skills to have in nuclear research.