Hi. I’m feeling a bit down.
I am 34. I did very well in school earning 10 GCSE’s and got my 3 A levels. I was quite well at this time. Very well in school.
When I went to University things got bad for me. I failed my final exam. I am suprised I made it that far and so I came out with a 2 year qualification (DipHE)
I got a job abroad teaching which I did for almost 5 years before I had a complete break and lost the job. At this point I ended up living in a home. I stayed there 3 years hoping at some point I would get better and get my career back.
I returned to my home country 4 years ago. I am Still unemployed never gone back to what I graduated in. Struggle more then ever after that 2nd psychotic break.
I have been living independently and engaged in community a couple of times a week now. I try to focus on that. (One day a week volunteering and the other day with a walking group)
But I feel down and like I am doing nothing with my life. Like I have achieved nothing. As though the things I did have gone to waste. The longer I stay unemployed I will never get back to work, and even so the daily struggles I have may even prevent me from doing so anyway.