been debating making a whole thread or posting in say anything…
realized i’m going to fail (or barely pass) the one class im taking: statistics.
i have a test on wednesday which i haven’t studied for and have fallen very behind in the past several weeks when avolition became much worse. thats also when i started compulsively looking at the forum way too much. i cannot make up lost ground between now and wednesday, i might not even take the test because i couldn’t handle the pressure
withdrawing from abilify has made me very unstable in the past 3 weeks, i have had serious mood swings and an inconsistent sleep schedule. i have even had suicidal thoughts during my random mood swings. this and avolition made it impossible to study or do the homework.
i think if my gpa falls below a 2.0 i will be placed on academic probation or something like that. might have to work really hard to get it back up so im not suspended. its just one class in the grand scheme of things, so i don’t know how much it will affect my gpa.
on the mental health side of things, if i fail at this i might be devastated. i know its an overreaction, but sometimes i am not rational with these things. i realize my self esteem is unstable
will talk to my older sister over the phone in a couple minutes, hopefully she can advise me on what to do…
there’s always the option of trying to cram 3 weeks of work into 3 days, of course even trying might end with me feeling even worse, especially if i cant grasp anything…so im wondering if i should even try at all
I understand feeling like the world is collapsing out from under you due to failing or falling behind in school (finally). I think you need to be on an AP again soon. It’s clear you’re doing poorly without it. If you need to talk any time, I’m here, buddy.
Health should be No.1 among all things. Consider giving youself 3-5 years to find the best meds to you as a special individual. During this 3-5 years you just learn to cope with the side effects of antipsychotics and to improve you cognitive ability. Once you are happy to take meds and are stable long enough, then you can restart your degree study.
BTW I have spent 5 years figuring out the best meds for me and exploring the way to handle the side effects. I failed over and over when trying out the supplements to improve my cognitive ability. Now I feel ready to do some academic work.
IMO, Just do what you can in these 3 days. Its ok if you dont do as well as u would have liked- dont put too much pressure on yourself I agree that will just be self-destructive. Its not the end of the world if you dont get the result u wanted for this exam.
Aw, I feel you, depression sucks and the crying all the time, don’t get me started…
Simple things tend to help me. Like: opening the curtains in the morning to let the sun in; walking; eating healthy; doing something you enjoy. Time out of the day to do these little things may ease your worries and let you get some studying in.
Take a deep breathe.
3 days… its still not to late for a tutor.
On a side note, How is statistics class in this day and age? Is it computer-based?
I took intro to stats and then a more advanced stats for my BA in sociology way back when I graduated in 2003. Both were computer and lecture based. No textbooks.
Personally, I loved it. Forgotten it all now though.
I did my senior thesis on crime in my city and its relationship with recidivism after community service. I even went so far as to collect all the data myself from the DA’s office where I interned. Then I gave a 1/2 hour lecture to my class at the end of the project. It was just supposed to be 10 minutes but I had so much to tell.
Looking back, I was probably manic at the time. I worked 2 jobs, internship and full-time student. plus partying all night.
its 5pm, i havent studied at all, may open the notes at 6, try and study through to midnight, and assess how far behind i am and develop a practical strategy
In the UK where I live, if you didnt pass and are very unwell, they allow you to retake at a later date with a note from the doctor. I don’t know about where you live Gorrister (I’m not saying u will not pass but just in case).
I am in contact with the disability office for my campus, they can postpone exams for me…I have to send an email soon though. It’s time for me to get motivated and do that if I will. Now is the time.
Thank you everyone for your advice, I’ve decided to write an email to the disability office to try and postpone the exam, hopefully I can take it at a later date and earn a better score.