Feeling defeated

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Been feeling defeated as of late, had a change in my diagnosis but that can’t take away the past 15 years of suffering. Not to mention all the missed opportunities and days wasted spent inside or alone. Even holidays spent alone for having no desire to interact with others. Mental illness is a terrible thing, and it doesn’t necessarily have to be schizophrenia to be disabling. People take for granted how lucky they are to not have a disorder that involves psychosis. I know they say everybody’s got problems but not like this. Life is ten thousand times harder with this diagnosis than it would be without.
We need a cure

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Can’t let it break your spirit…your a child of the moon…sufferings part of the gig…I wish healing and strength to all of us moon children…we all need it…

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Damn, I know how you feel.
When I feel defeated, it’s usually emotion-based and not logic-based.
The suffering can overwhelm us until we feel like giving up…
But logically there’s no reason to think we’ve been defeated.
As long as we don’t give in and indulge in sludge and evil, we’re still in the fight against this crap.
I don’t think there’s a cure coming any time soon.

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Thanks @flameoftherhine. That actually made me feel better what you said. I think a lot of us were different from the get go. I know I wanted no part of what the real world had to offer. Just didn’t know I would slide this far off the grid. Here’s to being a child of the moon!

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Thanks @nomad my logic comes and goes, emotionally it sometimes feels like an invisible hand squeezed my heart until it burst, so I can relate to the emotional struggle. Keep on keepin on, that’s all we can do.

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Sz/sza/BP1 = the dream stealers

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Yea mine is mostly a lack of desire, but I suppose what’s underneath it is a a fear of becoming paranoid maybe and being criticized. It doesn’t really matter what the reason I guess. The end result is that we end up alone and that’s not good.

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15 characters …

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Yep been there multiple times. Been hospitalized multiple times because of it but im still doing it somehow. Ill keep doing it until i just can’t but until that day comes ill be kickin it. Just hang strong, for me i have to stay away from booz, and take care of yourself. Maybe theres some big ridiculous reason everythings like this. If lifes a series of head butts its the times you don’t have headaches. Also i notice my quality of life is greatly improved with the presence of a pet.

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If people only knew the agony of the word “schizophrenia” when they use that word it would overwhelm them.