I knew that the guy was HIV-positive and I knew that I didn’t really want to do this with him
Maybe I should save it for the counsellor… Just really not all great really… At the time there was another guy in a bar who was unknown viral problems as in I didn’t catch anything off either of them, but was full on That’s basically rape as well
Haven’t been considering it in those terms until now… Oh god what a mess
I’m pretty sure that schizophrenia psychosis gives you that Zero ability to give consent at times
Sorry to hear this. Please take care of yourself. Sending you warm thoughts.
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I had a similar issue while psychotic. Just went with it with a couple of guys and let myself get taken advantage of.
Things are a lot more different now, and that’s all we can do, change our ways now and let go of the past.
I’m glad neither of us caught anything
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I know that legally people with dementia or alzheimers can’t consent to sex. Even if its 2 alzheimer’s people having sex, neither of them can consent legally. At least in NYS. I thought @CloudDog raised a very good legal and ethical question, so I emailed my psych nursing instructor who is an NP. I’ll let you know what he has to say about it.
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There’s some sick puppies out there. When you’re a guy and you hear open thoughts about guys who speak of women in such a derogatory manner…and then you hear the women who are abused…it makes me think. What kind of world are we living in. I notice the sicker the man, the more attraction he gets from women. Everyone is confused. And life isn’t fair. Just cuz I was an abusee my whole life and not an abuser shouldn’t mean I have to be single but that’s how it works. Hopefully you find reason in relationships and a nice guy like you deserve 
and I’m glad you’re okay. Be careful Peace.
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Charlie Sheen is HIV positive, its on the news everywhere.
Hey, we all did things that we regret for.
Sorry to vent my frustrations clouddog but just know I mean well
That’s what made me think of it the 3+ months of not knowing when blood and sperm were involved but did not meet
No probably correct until the woman has enough of it and marries the nice guy
Like my husband
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Oh so this was a while ago? Thanks for your post makes me feel better that you found a nice guy 
I know trauma can linger for years after
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Also my point is not the 50 guys I’ve given consent to either… during promiscuous times - regret a lot of them
Just raising a point about consent
Trauma doesn’t go away really I agree
Process… Process… Process… Process
On and off
Sorry what do you mean by ‘consent’? A permission?
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Legal consent as in rape or consent yes permission
Yeah I still dwell on things from when I was 11 years old. That was the start of the illness that tore apart my life. Since, I’ve been doing better now, it’s easier to put it in a farther section of my brain but still hard sometimes. I think it was good and bad I decided to revisit trauma after escaping it from age 11-21 by pretending it never happened
So you are talking about the problem of consent while you are in psychosis?
Sorry …foreigner. 
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Yes 
Sorry not to take that into consideration immediately
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Nah, you sorry 
It is interesting…now that you mentioned it…I have no idea is there any legal frame for such situations…
I have a few experiences with manic+high state …but I always thought that Im responsible for what I do…regardless of the condition .it all depends with whom you hang out I guess.
For so long I pretended life was peaches and cream then one night I emailed this girl and said “enjoy your perfect life”. Which was the wrong thing to say, but nevertheless she started trying to compare her life to mine as worse and I realized I had it a lot harder than her my whole life. She made me think it was normal to think about how tough your life is and I started thinking about all the bad things that happened to me after pretending life was perfect for years. For better and for worse I still think about this stuff. Sorry to go off on a tangent…
I can go pretty low when I’m in emotionally vulnerable…dependent state…and depressed.
Like, this is what happened once…I feel bad when I think about it…
So, I was crying that morning, and my boyfriend was out, I was washing dishes, then his friend from band came to see him…as he was to get back for a bit, I offered this guy to come in… He has a long time girlfriend… He asked if I was crying…and then talked with me really nice, asking how things are going between me and D… At one point he lightly touched my arm like he was saying ‘it will be OK’… And I just had this thought…he was good to me and I have to give it back…and put his hand between my legs… But he wasn’t like that… He smiled and said no, and then we talked a bit more about all the situation… He was really cool and never mentioned it again.
I mean…we think that guys are pigs lol but its not everything black and white…
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