So I’m schizoaffective with depression. I’ve been tracking my mood and it seems like I’m content for a week followed by a week of major depression followed by a few days of feeling really good. I just experienced a mixed episode. I had all this energy but felt incredibly down.
My shot of invega 3 months injection is due up Feb 1st.
After feeling so low and almost suicidal yesterday. Today I am feeling way way better. Almost good. I have energy, I’m somewhat positive. But I can’t focus on anything as my mind seems to be jumping all over the place. I can’t remember what it feels like to be off meds but could this be a case of my med wearing off? I feel a little like I could just lose it at any moment, but yet still under control. It’s odd. The past week has just been a roller coaster of sadness.
I think I experience this too, it’s hard to keep up with how I am feeling. But I don’t think I get suicidal… I just get weird thoughts of what if I wasn’t there… how would my mum cope. I worry about my health a lot. I also get a little low if I accidentally skip a day of meds.
I get suicidal maybe one bad day every 2 weeks. But these past 2 bad days have been EXTREMELY bad. Like record lows. Then the next day it’s as if it didn’t even happen
I’m thinking I need a mood stabilizer. My doctor told me to go to the hospital if I was feeling manic. I almost did but didn’t want my parents to worry about me. I opted for the bed all day.
What about getting pills of your med as a prn to take when you feel the depot wears off? I don’t know if this is a possibility. I never heard anyone on the forum doing this, IDK.
Insurance won’t cover the same pills as my med. It’d have to be something else. I am curious to get a low dose AP as a secondary AP to see if it takes all my paranoia away.
I have schizophrenia but i get badly down like you every few days to point of suicidal. Ive been like this for years sometimes it can become worse and suicidal all the time, at the moment its every few days and i can wake up the next day feeling much better.
Weekends are worse for some reason
Im on depot for years and get it Wednesday, thinking more meds might be a good idea!
It’s a dilemma. Maybe another ap helps paranoia, but likely you will get considerable side effects.
Maybe try niacin and vitamin d for intrusive thoughts. I take 500mg niacin every other day, and 5000iu vitamin d daily. It helps me a lot. They are relatively cheap supplements.
Okay. I can try that. I’m currently taking CBD which my doctor warned can make schizophrenia worse. But now I’m reading studies that larges doses of it act like an AP. And I’ve read it can help treat schizophrenia. So somebody is mixed up. CBD has done wonders for my anxiety. I’m not even taking my anxiety med as the CBD has better results.
Jeeze I couldn’t imagine being suicidal all the time. I’ve never been this depressed in my life. But having to stop work and leaving all my friends behind has left a huge void in my life. I just recently was in the somewhat manic state of being suicidal. It’s a depression I had never known. But now I know it. I’ll never commit suicide but I’ve definitely thought about what if I just od’d on pills or something