Things are not looking too good. Not suicidal but I’m 22, over 360 lbs, high cholesterol, high a1c, on olanzapine, can’t work, schizophrenic, and just lay in bed all day. I feel like I’m near the end of my life, Idk if its anxiety but every so often my heart will do some strange things. When I think about it I feel like it’d be for the best if my mom out lives me rather than the other way around. I have no life skills as I’ve been staying home rarely going out since getting sz at age 15. I fear if I lose another parent I will be alone and probably end up homeless because I have nothing in place to be self sufficient. Just venting
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Im 30 and feel the same exact way .
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Knowing you could be homeless is stressful for anyone. I don’t know where I’ll go if anything happens to my husband. It’ll most likely be a group home. Have you considered a group home? I’m thinking it’s better than being homeless
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Idek if I could get in a group home considering the ssa determined I’m not disabled. Or at least not enough to qualify for ssi- despite 6 years of being in psychiatric treatment and failing to work
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You need a social worker to fill out a form stating you’re disabled. At least, that’s how it was a few years ago
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I am always preoccupied with these thoughts too.
Are you stable enough to make health / dietary changes to change your A1C, cholesterol and weight?
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Did you appeal the decision and get a lawyer? Most people dont get approved at first. It took me 3 years to get approved
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i got a lawyer but they havent done much. i am on my third try now, first with attorney. the attorney never even calls, they just send me automated emails to call the office after i speak with ssa and send a bunch of forms that i doubt are used for anything
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technically. all my weight problems and cholesterol plus a1c were inexistant before olanzapine. ive tried other meds and have lost weight but i always end up back on olanzapine as its the only med that keepse stable mentally. makes me ravenously hungry tho and has negative effects on my metabolism and energy
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Thats kinda how mine was too so dont fret.
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Keep trying to get on social security you will receive a huge back pay when you do
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This is true i got $17K in back pay
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Wow! That is a lot! I received 5k but i was approved 6 months after applying first try with no lawyer I think my Mom filled out the paperwork she mustve did a good job
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You’re depressed and fed up with your situation.
22 is super young.
Maybe try and work on your diet and getting out the house 3 or 4 times a week?
Are there any clubs, classes, volunteering you can join? I would have a look around your local area for things that might interest you.
If not even just going outside is good for you.
Try and get rid of obvious junk food (soda, crisps, burgers) and maybe only allow yourself a very small amount per week. Cut portions down too.
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I’m the same. Everyday, I just lie on the couch all day long. This has gone on for 10 years.
You are still young. 22 is no number. I think you need to change meds. I’m sure things will get better for you.
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When I was spending all my time in bed it was because I was depressed, and suffering negative symptoms where I didn’t want to do anything.
For me getting up and on my computer, playing games, playing music, watching movies etc is a lot better than sitting doing (next to nothing) is a big difference.
Are there any skills you want to acquire @cigarino . Maybe make some aims/ambitions for things you’ve always been curious about trying but never got around to yet. Not everything has to revolve around work. You are still very young it sounds like you need support finding out a routine that works for you.
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Schizophrenia is scary. I cant handle doing chores every day or cooking for myself. I often wish id die before my parents. I will always be living with family. When my parents eventually die i’ll move in with my brother or sister. I hope i die before them.
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All I can say is that we are given the gift of this life. What we choose to do with it is up to us. If we want to eat shitty food and drink beer and lay in bed all day we can. Or, we can get up and go exercise and make the most of the gift we’ve been given. We make choices. That isn’t to say your choices are bad or good, generally people do what makes them happy. But, if you want to be here for a while, you have to start making different choices. It’s up to you.
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Not completely accurate.
But with treatment and support at home and physicians pdoc therapists - @cigarino
I hope you can get help with your health problems associated with SZ and meds.
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I lay in bed all day til 1 pm then I lay on couch til 5 pm then I go back to bed.
I do try to exercise half a hour a day atleast and really recommend that.
Can you try to exercise half a hour a day?
A group home could be good.
Good wishes to you.
Thi gs can get better.
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