They say that I chose to stay in bed all day everyday. My daily schedule is wakeup and stay in bed for 4h, get up to eat, back to bed for 4h, repeat until I sleep at night.
I don’t know what to do, I can’t live alone, take care of myself and manage money. Can I live in the hospital or a place for old and disabled ppl?
I don’t see another option to get rid of my parents other than suicide which I stopped doing since last year because my parents cried when I was close to die from poisoning and liver failure drs told my parents in the emergency. I vomited for 2hrs, I would be dead if my parents came late to home where I was vomiting.
My therapist told me to do self talking when I feel stuck with depression/negative symptoms.
So I tell myself to move around a bit when all I feel like doing is lying around on the couch.
She said for me to take small steps.
Even walking for 10 minutes around the house is progress.
Don’t give up.
I wish I had more positive and less negative symptoms.
Can I live in the hospital or a place for old and disabled ppl?
Another option is living in the street but I don’t want to catch diseases like bacteria and viruses, I would rather suicide without suffering than living in the streets. I know I can’t survive in the streets because I am too weak mentally and physically.
You should continue to live at home but try pushing yourself a little more.
You can do this.
IDK. Do they want you to move out? Do you want to move out? Do bears sh*t in the woods? Wait a minute, I digress.
I lived in group homes. Living in those homes takes the pressure off of living with parents or roommates or by yourself.
And if you get in the right one, you have few responsibilities… That can be both good and bad. When I lived in one from 1990-95 It was a pretty simple way to live. I don’t know about your country and how the group homes are or even if you have them or if they are roughly the same as American ones. But the one I was in, the owners were a husband and wife. They hired a cleaning lady to come in on weekends and help the wife clean.
They also did all the shopping and cooking and everybody in the house ate together. That was the only time we had to be all together, otherwise the rest of the time you could pretty much do what you want. Some people just stayed at home hanging out smoking or drinking soda. Others had some kind of daytime activity but it wasn’t required. I shared a room with one other guy, we had room for a few possessions and we just had to make our beds each morning and keep our few possessions neat.
We didn’t have to do any cleaning though we did our own laundry on the premises on weekends. Violence was not tolerated. Supposedly either were drugs or drinking but I know some people were doing those. We could come and go as we please as long as we were home for meals but there was a curfew at night of 10:00 pm. It was flexible though because I was going to AA meetings almost every night and sometimes I got home after 10:00 pm but it was for a good reason so they allowed it.
People had their own radios and even TV’s but the only entertainment the home provided was a TV with a VCR and a cabinet of some of the coolest movies on video. It was all guys so the owner had movies like Rambo, Dirty Harry, Total Recall, Top Gun, Predator etc.
Idk, I lived there 5 years but the time passed quickly. I only made one friend the whole time but I wasn’t hated. I happen to be working and going to school and that meant I wasn’t part of the crowd who hung out together but they didn’t hassle me, they just let me alone and I let them alone. It’s cool, I can handle being a loner sometimes. The whole thing was OK, it wasn’t a bad experience. Oh yeah, the owners kept everybody’s medication and handed them out at 7:00 pm every night.
Maybe try part time work first or volunteering.You will feel great if you do chore/work without getting paid as your helping others.I am working full time for my father
I’m guessing you don’t follow the news? Long Term Care in Ontario is the last place you want to be right now unless you like a high risk of infection combined combined dangerously low quality of care and some additional abuse by their staff heaped in.
you could always try group homes, thats where i plan to live (temporarily) when my parents die
You can’t keep blaming your sz for you lounging in bed all day.
I get that doing things feel like a hassle, but if you make it a routine and push yourself a little, you’ll find it’s not as hard as you think.
I used to be like you, until I realised the hardest thing was getting started. I would overthink how hard something would be for me, and just give up.
Do small things. Like doing the dishes after dinner, or sweeping your room, or walking around in the house for a bit. Even if at first you feel like you don’t want to. You just have to get used to it.
Sure, you have schizophrenia, but that’s no excuse for giving up on life and not trying.
Exactly blaming on other things make you as a victim with no option left. Instead think what you can do in this situation. Habits is the helper to go along with the daily routine its also the culprit if used to have a bad routine. So make good habits and follow it like a slave with no option to skip. This is the key to manage negative symptoms.
Since I switched from Abilify I feel completely paralyzed, I have a hard time getting up from bed many times during the day even for eating. On Abilify I was closer to normal and I had pleasure doing stuff.
Now even the easiest thing playing video games doesn’t give me pleasure, I try to play 1-2x/week. I loose focus fast. The anhedonia is too severe on anything other than Abilify.
I stopped Abilify because it gave me multiple addiction issues to gambling, sex, shopping and eating.
Try ablify at very dose so it won’t get hyper. 2mg or 5mg etc.
@Aziz Your posts continually raise the issue, for me, of how much is down to the illness process , and how much is a state of mind thing .
Modafinil in low dose might also help i think. I tried it but tolerance build quickly requiring more and more dose to feel same effect.
It increases dopamine.
I think best is to allow yourself to feel some positive symptoms so that your extreme negative symptoms can get better. For this you need to ask your pdoc to reduce already taking risperidone dose. But you must be prepared to self manage some of the positive symptoms you might experience due to that. If get voices, thoughts then must not respond to it nor entertain it.
You really need to start to push yourself. The illness sucks, but it only wins if you let it beat you.
Find the fight and you will get some sort of purpose in life and things might change for you.
Give it a try, you have nothing to lose and everything to gain
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