I really want to move out but i cant becouse i only work part time. Its making me suicidal as i im going to be like thsi forever. Im really angry that i cant have a normal life like everyone else. I dont know what i have done wrong.
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If you spend all of your time ruminating over how bad things are, you’re going to keep them that bad or make them worse. You waste a tremendous amount of energy on being miserable that you could be putting into recovery. Your poor attitude is probably handicapping you more than the SZ is.
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Not all hope is lost. Even though you work, you’re disabled because sz is a disability in my opinion. You can apply for disabled low income housing. I’m sure your pdoc would give you the letter stating you have a disability. The rent is based on your income that way. It’s a long waitlist but you can get on it and eventually one day have a place to live on your own.
Suicide is not the answer. You can still live a good life. I’m tagging the moderators for hotline numbers.
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I jsut cant understand how i can get better
I jsut feel so alone with everything seeing everyone else move on. I just dont want to stagnate anymore
If you are feeling suicidal or having a mental health crisis, please tell someone — a friend or family member, a teacher, a doctor or therapist or call 911 (if you’re in the U.S.) or the Emergency Medical Services phone number in your country.
You can also call a crisis intervention hotline—these are available in the U.S. and in many other countries. You do not need to be actively suicidal to benefit from a crisis hotline.
International crisis hotlines:
Crisis hotlines in the U.S.:
https://www.thetrevorproject.org
More resources:
Im afraid to ask for help because i dont want to be dependant
Getting help will ultimately make you less dependent though.
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I got a degree with schizophrenia,
I moved out with schizophrenia,
I got married and birthed a child,
I live a full life that I enjoy, all with schizophrenia.
It’s more of an effort, but it’s also more rewarding.
You should start a daily schedule for yourself and see if you feel more normal/productive.
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Set a small achievable goal. Keep working at it until you can do it easily. Then set the next small goal. It could be something like keeping a corner of your room tidy or walking around the block regularly. You choose. Recovery is done placing one brick at a time - you don’t get a whole building in one day.
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@anon15119022 How old are you?
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Have hope, I was in the same place as you when I was first diagnosed. 5 or so years later, I have graduated and now have my own place and work full time. albeit, just the beginning of my full time working life, and the home is a council home and not on a mortgage or private landlord renter’ship
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Other people do it.
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You should be able to qualify for assistance so you can afford to live on your own and continue to work. and subsidized housing.
I got schizophrenia (my first psychotic break and inpatient stay) around 2015 its now 2022 and I’m feeling like I’m finally getting my head wrapped around this and finding even more ways to come back into my own.
I haven’t yet gotten a job, but I’m really close to feeling like I might, with this “nobody wants to work” bs companies are throwing out there, I feel like I can probably pick up a job despite my illness and probably make a couple hundred bucks and if I have to quit I feel like it would just be another day for them and I wouldn’t really be that big of a bother.
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I’ve been having serious problems with my health because olanzapine started giving me insomnia as a secondary effect 8 years ago. Really it’s been 8 years of suffering. Trying to get off the meds. I actually worked full time for two of those years which was pretty crazy considering the state I was in. I had to quit the job because I burnt out. It took well over a year to recover. Now I have got partial disability and work a little on the side. It’s not the life I dreamt of, but I keep myself busy, try to stay positive despite of it.
I finally got approved a med change and things might change to the better now. At least I hope.
Maybe you need to accept your situation, but at the same time that doesen’t mean that you are giving up. It just means you make the best of it with what you have. Things can always change with time. Things don’t have to stay the same, there are always alternatives, although maybe not the best alternatives. Life is like that for a lot of us. We can’t choose from the top shelf, but we can still make changes and find oppertunities.
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Me too. I guess you are much younger than me - I’m 53. One thing is certain, especially for young people, nothing is ever stable and unchangeable. Don’t give up, tomorrow might bring change either by your own will or by coincidence (most of our life we are victims to randomness or other peoples actions)
But i know how you feel, especially tonight, My situation sucks too and i want to be normal too, even im 53 and knows I’m never going to be a normie.
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Im 23 years of age
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That’s when I got knocked sideways by SZ. Took a couple of years to get upright again. They were not fun. I’m now 53 and doing pretty good. It’s possible to have a fun life in spite of SZ.
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I guess so i had my break when i was 18 unfortunately
Thats the year I had my first major episode of psychosis. Thought my life was done. Had a rough time for a while.
Fast forward 11 years later and im doing alright 
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