I try my best to maintain a positive attitude in order to feel better but sometimes I just feel like a grown child. I don’t work and haven’t been able to pay for my own stuff since I was 22 years old. That was over 3 years ago. Maybe I’m just feeling bad because I was woken up at 3 am and dreading the day ahead because the same thing happened last night.
5 Likes
Hello,
I also get that feeling like i dont have a chance in life, i feel like all my attempts are in vain…
They say perseverance is key its just so hard somedays.
Im always failing at 90 percent of the things i do.
Sux
3 Likes
I feel pretty vulnerable at times too.
1 Like
Oh man, as I grew up I never had a snowballs chance in hell of surviving. But 50 years later, here I am, alive and kicking.
I didn’t say two words to anyone but a few friends through 4 years of high school. I missed out on life back then. It seems that your music would be very therapeutic for you.
4 Likes
It is very therapeutic for me. It’s one of the things I understand in this world for sure. It helps ground me to reality and forces me to focus.
3 Likes
I try to drown out the worries that my life is headed downhill. When I feel that way I take a trip outside to unwind. Can’t “want it all at once” when it comes to schizophrenia. Have to slowly make progress at your own pace. Think about the things you want in the future like a relationship, some sort of work or hobby, ideal weight, etc. write it down. Try to “move forward” every year. If that means spending more time with family, visit them more. Find a easy job like facilitating support groups or being a peer specialist. A good support group or other mental health organization will help you get started on finding work, friends, and a new life. Have both long term aspirations and daily goals like getting up early or finishing a task. The new year is coming. Make something of it!
3 Likes
I’ve definitely been reorganizing my life since my last frantic state. Can’t call it a total psychotic break because I never lost insight but there was some disorganized thinking and some slight delusions going on. But I was still able to question what was real.
But I definitely don’t want to take a chance. This last battle with psychosis definitely pit things into a new perspective for me. I was able to fully accept the illness and the need to go on a new med even at a relatively low dose (abilify 10mg). Glad I made the decision before the decision had to be made for me. I would have been worse of, for sure if I had to go to the hospital again.
I’ve been establishing a routine like getting up in the morning, eating, meds, cleaning and then working on music or vlogging. It’s helping me, for sure. I also reconnected with my therapist and hope to see her in January.
6 Likes
Well having a severe mental illness basically means you’re ■■■■■■. You can try climbing up the greased pole, but you probably won’t get anywhere. You can find a minimum wage job if you fancy that. Orherwise it’s welcome to hell, enjoy your stay here.
Well…okay then…
Sorry but that’s the situation, if you know better please tell us…
A lot of other people around here seem to be a lot more positive than that…
1 Like
I’m sorry you feel that way, but I don’t know any better than anyone else on this forum. If anything, I can learn from the ones who have been diagnosed longer than I have. I’m still young and have my whole life ahead of me.
2 Likes
Sorry if I’m too negative
It’s hard to have a career when you have a mental illness
But, it is possible, some people can manage it
You’re young ok, I would suggest learning something for a job you know you can do. That is probably stating the obvious, but what I mean is, even if you’re smart, could you actually be smart on the job? It’s a different environment with pressure.
Yeah it’s a tough cop but a little positivity goes a long way. You are still young. I didn’t start to get my life together till I got on meds at 29. That really sorted stuff out for me in a positive way. I got over the paranoia. I got over the hurt and all that and just started living.
I’m 47 but live a decent life. It’s not what others could say is normal but for a guy who doesn’t work I have a pretty good go of things. I know it’s hard but just simple things like 30 minutes of walking a day can help you break that cycle of negativity . It’s worth doing!
6 Likes
I know I don’t and don’t care.
1 Like
i think I know what you mean - but maybe not.
Work does not define us anymore than eating burger makes us a McDonald’s.
Lots of people don’t work and never have- but that doesn’t make them worth less-
My mom never worked (outside the house), but she have a lot of value to me.
Find meaning in what you do, and life gets better.
6 Likes
You are an extremely talented, and intelligent young man.
Staying in a routine is good, and can help with self esteem.
The bottom line is this: We all have the right to live. Even the worst person on earth has this right, and I highly doubt you are such a person.
Stay positive my friend!!
I was bed ridden when I first got ill. Eventually through medication, therapy, and a good support system, I got my own apartment and I’m starting school soon.
I believe there’s hope for everyone.
Just my .02. But I’ve been there, where it didn’t feel like there was any light at the end of the tunnel.
I’m still struggling at times, but things aren’t nearly as bad as they were in my younger years.
Blessings. 
6 Likes
I realize I was too focused on the light at the end. I now know that i have to keep the tinnel lit so i can see in the dark. I love metophors.
6 Likes
Stay strong on the path my friend.
As long as you can see the light, there will always be hope.
May I ask, do you have lots of positive symptoms?
3 Likes