I’m still here. Been taking a break to get some perspective on things… This site has a tendency to keep a lot of things afloat in my mind…
Another month though, life goes on. I’ve started biking at least a mile a day. Made the stupid decision to buy a pack of pall malls today… but uh it should be one of my last few days with tobacco here.
It just seemed like an exciting thing to do while waiting for the mail to arrive.
So how goes it all y’all?
What are you’re Februaries looking like?
Tags and Taxes… and a new driver’s license for me. Doctor visits of course.
Was filling out an online application at some job searching site for two damn hours - you can guess it was in English, and was one step to finish it when Luka came with plastic box and put it right on the keyboard.
Make me TV of this.
It all went down and my stuff wasn’t saved.
And then I started crying. Lol.poor me. He was not really upset, little ■■■■.
Happy Feb 1st! Sarad, I’ve done this so many times!! I will fill out paragraphs of application and the site freezes or something and then I have to start over. Ugh. Stress. Stress has been the word of the town. We had 3 feet of snow, was trapped until the snow-plows came! I have minimized my caffeine intake. Cheer up…all things are temp. momentary, and when the snow melts, flowers spring up. Me I’m paying closer attention to my emotions and relating them external and internally. I’m setting more goals, starting audiobooks because it helps me concentrate better to hear instead of read and I need glasses so it’s harder to read lol…but yeah here’s to new beginnings and spring-times ahead…
I am in the process of switching schools to one where I only go to school once a week and learn the material by myself. I love school, but after my devastating relapse and hospitalization I just can’t handle it.
Had a good day at work. Fought bumper to bumper traffic on the way home after work and I only had to flip off three people instead of my usual four so I’m making progress. Stopped and ate dinner at KFC and came home and proceeded to vomit it all up, Ewww, yuck, (says the crowd), but it’s a fact of life right? Anyway, I skipped my dinner at home, and organized my to-do list, now I’m laying on my bed and trying to relax. By the way, good to hear from you. I assume you are still living successfully on your own, right?
Am trying… sucks to be dependent on external money… I’m making good progress in managing it. Still need to build up a padding to make sure the expenses are covered on time.
This month beyond bills will be the first I don’t have to spend any money on anything beyond food. So we’ll see if that padding holds up.
Maybe it’s time you wrote up a bucket list… Things you want to do in life. You know choose some places to travel to, or some activities that might be stimulating… like rock climbing or something.
But yeah… always good to see you around.
I just needed a time-out to re-establish the idea of the kind of presence I wanted to have on here.
Gotta be supportive and not so attention seeking…
But in the last 24 hours I’ve already had a lot of good chats. It’s a wonderful site.
ive been going to an inner city group therapy. these kids have the worst external problems in the country but they have extraordinary social skills. makes me wonder if i really have many problems in the end.
@notmoses switching to Saphris from Abilify in March. Saw doc this morning. Asked her about Risperdal and she said thats a backup plan for my case.
it seems every drug i look up on the internet has serious but rare side effects like comas seizures etc. Were brave for taking these drugs.
Well mental illness is a different kind of torment.
You’re gonna be alright man. It’s good you are getting out there and finding support. Contrast with different peer groups does bring a lot of perspective and can ease the burden…
I try explaining this to people but they’re only impressed if you were in a plane crash or something else thats impressive outwardly. They don’t get that mental illness is inward torment.
Me I’m paying closer attention to my emotions and relating them external and internally. I’m setting more goals, starting audiobooks because it helps me concentrate better to hear instead of read and I need glasses so it’s harder to read lol…but yeah here’s to new beginnings and spring-times ahead…