I swear, I cannot wait to talk to my psychiatrist - I need some clarity and understanding, because my PHD therapist is frankly confusing me.
According to my therapist, I do not get truly paranoid, just fearful and its connected to my OCD and Anxiety and Panic Disorder.
So when I see my Family doctor and he uses a thermometer to take my temperature - I am having these thoughts of him purposefully drugging the thermometer to harm me or I am having thoughts of him contaminating the thermometer with some sort of virus to harm me - According to my brilliant therapist its not paranoia - then what the ■■■■ is it?!?
According to her its a fear from my Anxious nature.
Both my psychiatrist and therapist thinks that I am hardwired to think this way - I always thought that my thinking was paranoid, but my therapist tells me its not.
I know that I get suspicious of others and have a difficult time with trust - My therapist likes to downplay my symptoms - I really want to know what my pdoc thinks.
I always thought that being suspicious of others or thinking that others could harm me was part of paranoia - Now I am being told differently from my therapist - I dont get it