Finally I understand why me.
Why I have Sz ?
I was ok for 2 months and there you go another fight within the family and bam I am off the track.
If this happens again planing to stay alone.
It much better that way.
Do you feel you guys had a stable family ?
It’s like fight each and every alternate days. Or its just my assumption going wrong again due to off track 
I’m blessed with a family that, tho imperfect, always supported me and still does to this day even tho i live 6000 miles away from them.
I never thought family would ever fall apart
But it has
And in a bad way
Things will never be the same again
We all miss out and will die that extra bit more lonely
Just remind yourself that it wasn’t of your doing. If it were up to you it would be different. All you can do is cherish the individual relationships you have and hope they will reconcile before it is too late. 
I knew petty bickering happened with friendships where some people treat you as disposable
But coming from within my own family I was too naive to think it could ever happen
My family was really disfunctional. Multiple MH staff said as much and that that it was not good for my recovery to live with them. But unfortunately I couldn’t find anywhere permenant to live for a long time so I had to put up with it for a long time.
I see my mum still but I don’t have any contact with my Dad or my siblings and don’t really miss them. Christmas is the only time of year where I feel like an outcast. The rest of the year I’m glad I don’t have to deal with their nonsense and hostility.
Everyone in my family has mental health conditions my mother also being schizophrenic like me. So yes I can relate to that fighting all the time part…