It’s not like I see a fight on every corner on every day. I actually live in a safe neighborhood. I actually haven’t been in a fight since I was 17 and three cowboys jumped me and my two friends while we were drunk and we were walking downtown trying to pick up girls on a Saturday night. In fact, I haven’t even seen an actual fight since about 15 years ago when I saw two teenage boys fighting in the street when I was at a traffic light. But the threat is there. People are probably so numb from having so many threats that they aren’t a big deal. Not me. It still bugs me. EVERY time I’m driving and I’m stopped at a red light, inevitably a car will roar up behind me and get too close. If that isn’t a threat then what is it? Or going anywhere out of my own neighborhood. Driving is chaos. Especially on freeways… I don’t know where I’m going with this…
Maybe my point is I just want to be left alone in peace.
It’s okay, Nick. Lot’s of folks love you, including me!
Jayster
Now I know where I’m going with this. I got fed up at work today. I’m the bottom man in the pecking order. But I got mad today. My co-workers pis*sed me off. They’re not horrible people but they act like if they get mad, then I have to jump. The women from my companies office who comes every Monday to the site bugged me. She’s nice but she thinks I’m funny in a bad way. And tries to treat me that way. Not having it. Not without a fight. I’m not going to fight her, lol. But she has to see that I have every damn women and man on the base acting like they can kick my ass. Well, a lot of them are actually cool people. But I’m fed up with them and their stupid confidence. I enjoy helping people on this site. In fact I think I’m very lucky to be able to help people, I feel honored. And you guys help me. But you guys have to understand. I face what everybody else faces. People get angry with me. People intimidate me and try to scare me or play stupid games with me. People have power trips going on. I face it everyday. But my co-worker got mad at me. And I got mad. I hate people who use their temper to get what they want. I understand having a temper and honestly getting angry with someone who slights you. But don’t get mad at me arbitrarily just to get power or control over me. Hmm, that sounds a little paranoid. But my co-worker started getting mad at me so I said 'screw it" and got mad back. And my anger carried over to all those damn soldiers who are arrogant and condescending and like they’re the only ones on the planet. Well, to be honest, in a way they are the only ones on the planet who protect the U.S. so they get much credit for that. But most of these guys are office workers. But it doesn’t mean I have to take crap from all of them. I’m the underdog. They’re people. And sadly, people will take advantage of you. Even soldiers too. Today I wasn’t having it. And getting mad and taking it out on the weightlifters int the Gym who started it, felt good. That’s why people stand up for themselves. …It feels good…Thanks for letting me vent.
Thanks Jayster. I’ll accept that and I appreciate that greatly! But I stand by my bottom post.
driving is definitely chaos. i was thinking about that today while driving in tons of traffic
nick, I am sorry you have such a nasty atmosphere at work. is there some supervisor or someone there you could complain to? maybe he/she could help you with it. I bet you’re not paranoid and it is real. good luck,
judy
Road rage is a threat to us all. People can be real assholes when it comes to that. I remember in 1980 Sonny Barger, the leader of the Hell’s Angels motorcycle gang saying that the whole world had gotten a whole lot meaner in the last ten years. We keep getting more and more violent. It’s a pity that people who live in the wealthiest and most enlightened society that has ever existed have to be violent.
In an another thread you remarked about how well you have maintained a workman’s attitude. That workman’s attitude speaks so well of you, because not all folks who can work, do work. (I do not mean folks on SNAP, whereas 9/10s are elderly, disabled, or working. I mean folks who are above the poverty level and refuse to engage in some form of work.) Your workman’s attitude is portrayed in films and in historical culture. You are the man–just as your father was.
I do not do well when folks play head games or go on power trips. Funny, I know I work in a swell place, when a supervisor will step in for me and make sure I am not squashed. Something about martial arts helps with that. Once a young talented youth did a flying kick, expecting myself and the others to lean the opposite way. When I stared at him head on, without leaning or flinching, neither did he, but his eyes were so big concealing his brief shock! I am a very quiet person in life. And I was attacked a lot as a youth; so I know the difference, often, when folks are gonna cross the line or, are wasting everyone’s time, by being mouthy. And the mouthy folks at work end up ignoring me which is what I want. Now on the street, gotta blend in!
But, there are also times when it is best to show conviction and not back down.
Anyway, your presence and tone here at this place make it possible to face the physical, verbal, psychological and emotional violence that erupts world-wide.
@77nick77 I think that when you have a severe mental illness and you are not doing well we lose our patience, get more paranoid and become super sensitive and get pissed off at people very quickly.
I have not been doing so well lately - lots of rapid cycling/ mixed mood states etc… and I have lost my patience with my brother completely. I cannot tolerate him at all lately, even when he has good intentions.
I texted him to apologize for lashing out at him and told him not to contact me until I am more stable.
You have to learn how to ignore people when they get under your skin, but this is my point, you cannot ignore certain irritating people when you are not doing so well.
My suggestion to you is to confide in your pdoc and tell him how super sensitive you have been lately - tell him or her , that you have a difficult time with paranoia and letting things go. Most likely you need a med adjustment or change - but if you dont let your doctor know how you are feeling, nothing will change, and things could get worse for you -
I am just being honest with you, please dont take it the wrong way
I think as we all get older, our worldview gets bigger ( and with help from the worldwide web! ) and we tend to see much more then when we were younger. We start seeing beyond our own little worlds.
At work, I`ve learned the hard way that the best thing to do if someone is irritating you, is to completely ignore them.
That seems to do it at my workplace!