Extremely negative self-image

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I have extremely negative self-image. I can’t seem to get out of it.

I just keep thinking that sz is embarrassing because the society perceives it so, and therefore I am embarrassing and disgusting.

I think that no one will love me and everyone will hate me because I have two disabilities.

Education doesn’t matter because I’m sz and it downplays all value…

How do I get out of this mindset? It’s killing me and I just keep thinking about killing myself.

My mom told me, “Do you want to die together with me?” because I just keep repeating my negative self-image. She told me to stop going to therapy because it won’t help and I won’t get myself out of it.

I don’t know, I want to cry. Life is hard. And I just feel so alone. And I feel like a failure.

Thanks for reading.

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You suffer from intrusive thoughts.(Objects attack you).
You should seek non-medicative methods to protect you from the objects.
Clothing, supplements diet hydration exercise etc all matter in your struggle against the objects.

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I fell asleep right after making this post.

I am trying my best but things are so difficult. I feel like no one likes me because I have sz.

It’s so embarrassing…I know it’s not true and I know that it’s my internalized stigma. But it’s hard.

Thank you for your input.

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i think you should just concentrate on what makes you happy,

i don’t see the point in wallowing over this, just try and live the best you can :slight_smile: :v:

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I feel what you’re saying. I have an extremely negative self image too. I hate myself and I want to die unless I’m getting constant reassurance that I’m good and I’m loved. It’s awful. It’s part of my schema. I don’t know how we can combat this. I’ve tried to calm and reassure myself the best I can but I still just hate myself and want to die a lot of the time. I stay alive because it would hurt the people I left behind too much for me to leave them that way. Oh yeah, there are good days too. And times that I’m not so focused on it. So I try to stay positive the best I can and try not to dwell. I wish there was some type of therapy we could do that would change it.

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@daydreamer @Leaf

I am so close to giving up. I just feel like I’m not important and I am trash because of sz.

I will try to think otherwise though, but it’s so difficult. My mom says that her words are falling on deaf ears and I don’t seem to understand my beauty and worth.

I just really want to die and end my life because my life is trash, but I will keep living if I have to…

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I’m sorry you feel so bad Laetitia, I really hope you feel better soon, all i can suggest is maybe some distraction techniques to try and focus on something else and take your mind off of it, something you enjoy, could be making a nice cup of tea or hot cocoa,

I will pray for you any way, maybe not out loud but i will pray,

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I feel so much better this morning. Thank you for being here…and thank you for your support.

My mom and I talked about this last night and I feel so much better now.

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Hi Chess, I am really scared tonight. I don’t want to die but the voices keep saying I am. Sorry about this topic but how can I protect my friend and myself. They might be reading this.

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You might read ’ The Lazy Man’s Guide to Enlightenment ’

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You are attractive never let anyone tell you otherwise

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