This has been bothering me lately. I work in healthcare and today at the hospital I was on my smoke break and a lady who was recently discharged came up to me to ask for a cigarette. She was a bit disheveled and was still wearing her bracelet. So I engaged in a chat with her to try to cheer her up. She asked what I did there and then told me she used to be an ICU Technician but then went crazy. And earlier this week we had three different 51/50s or pts with semi obvious psych issues. I couldn’t help but think while transferring care ■■■■ this might be me in a couple years.
It is a concern. Nothing you can do about it. Just think of it like even a normal person can die from a heart attack. We just have one more concern.
yeah that’s a good way to try to think about it, thank man
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Yes, I have wondered that. Even though I have a powerful delusion, I know better than to go around talking about it like it’s fact. I only talk to my ‘audience’ when I am alone and only talk about my delusion with trusted people. I have insight.
I have run across a few people lately who are way past having any insight at all and are just plum delusional outwardly. They speak and behave bizarrely. I have wondered if that will be me someday.
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When I see a crazy person I think… That was me… That’s what I’m like without my meds
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I vacillate between feeling that I could end up on some back ward for the rest of my life, to feeling that this whole damn schizophrenia thing just might work out and I will get my next job, have friends and keep tooling around town in my 2012 Volkswagen.
I go from the fear of living on the streets, to thinking I will get the woman in the end and live a happy life.
I can’t predict this crap. I think I’ll have one more coke and call it a night.
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Nah, I don’t worry anymore…hey wait, I must be that crazy lady you are talking about.
“is that going to be me one day”.
Heck, I think that every day about the upcoming 24 hours.
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Yeah, I wonder that sometimes. I see homeless people and I know that many of them are mentally ill and I wonder if I will end up among their ranks. Logically, I know that I have family that is very supportive and caring and wouldn’t let that happen to me, but I also have the government in my head telling me otherwise. It can be stressful sometimes but I try not to worry about it too much.
duude embrace it, pray to allah and shed your material wealth. Its what your heart wants the streets are our home
my mom called me crazy, the other day.