Used to like to pretend that I was doing shady stuff. Act like I did stuff on the darkweb and stuff guess it made me feel more important truth was I didn’t have a job and my parents didn’t understand any thing (or care for that matter) about computer science. I’d always be writing software and they’d be like did you make that.
Any way had the dream to be an app developer when I was a kid and no body took me seriously. Worked my ass off and all I ever got was when are you gonna get a real job. So any way some times I like to see the confusion or surprise when I egg people on. for example took someone on the internet I didnt know and pretended that they were out to get me then i went bout two streets down took out my phone battery and hopped along home to burst in out of breath and tell everyone that the I did stuff on the dark web. I just get so excited when i do it, idk.
I never lie.
I like simple truth.
Fair enough, I just find it gives me a bit of a rush.
I seldom lie. On April Fool’s Day I tell some big lies. But I’ve known people who would tell a lie when the truth would serve them better.
later on it helped me cope with stress but to each their own. I would be like “ the sky is purple” just to get it out of my system.
I am good why not be best at being good.
I feel instead of lie, research and gain knowledge on the issue, truth always convincing.
And truth inclined to relief if one have positive outlook.
I thought of it this way,
What is a lie?
Purple sky? Isn’t a human eye and its definition after all.
If humans is not made as main role or the center of intelligence,what will we chase ?
No but I remember I got suspended in 6th grade and this kid tried to put me down. There was an award show at the end of the year he was like “I should get the award for getting suspended the most ….3 times”. But I’m pretty sure he didn’t get suspended at all. But I did. I didn’t know how to feel. Oh this guy thinks it’s cool to get suspended but he’s bragging trying to out do my mischief. I was very ashamed when I was suspended.
I recently lied to a guy that rang me up. I knew he was a seller right off the bat, so when he spoke up my name and asked if it was me I told him it was wrong and hanged up.
It wasn’t for fun though. I had just gotten sick of playing games with these phonesellers.
truth sets you free. lies keep you in chains. if you’re dealing with the law then it a whole new ball game. whatever you say will be twisted and turned everywhich way the promoter can think of to get you. i lie to save my skin if i have to. i once told a road cop my mother had broken her arm and i had to get her. i was only with my shorts, my rayban shades, no shirt, no shoes, big hair, my sports car, and i was just leaving everyone behind when he stopped me. so, i kinda put on a performance, emotional and sh.t. real funny stuff. he looked at me and said, good luck. i went on to proceed leaving everybody behind again. i was feeling great that day.
Are you saying you wanted to impress them that you’re a badass doing shady stuff on the dark web? Not following…
Are you just trying to get a reaction out of them?
@Kxev Pretty much, it used to make me excited. I guess I just enjoyed the feeling.
@egofree Now thats where I draw the line some kid lit a fire when I was young and lied and said I did it. So when I came back from lunch and was hauling my self up the cliff face his mom grabs me by the collar and tells me my fort is on fire so I book it to my house (I had a fort in my yard). When I get there their’s no fire, so now I’m confused and long story short I end up in the back of a cop car with no idea whats going on so from there out I was scared shitless of the law.
Ok I get it.
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No personally I didn’t care about attention or my moms expectations.
I was rebellious loner and just on the computer.
But I can see how it can be fun to taunt your parents and others and get a rush.
@Kxev I wouldn’t say I was taunting them but perhaps provoking is more accurate. Most narratives Implied that I’m putting myself at risk in the hopes to excite or draw attention.
@Kxev Though sometimes I do provoke feelings of mistrust or uncertainty, but I try to reward trust afterward.
Your name on the forum is great. Kind of provoking. Its funny.
@Kxev I feel my name symbolizes me somewhat as I lost my filter when apathy started to kick in.
F—- Apathy
I totally get that.
I guess back on topic - No. Not for fun.
I guess not being true self with around people.
I guess thats a lie. But I lie to hide my SZ.
I lie and tell my family i am still working - while really im on disability.
@Kxev Thats fair, Lies can be helpful in social connection but at either extreme can end up being pathological. (PBS - Why do we lie?) youtu.be/BvLf63krM2g If I remember correctly lies can even be a pro social behaivour.