It’s deeply frustrating when you’ve struggled and worked so hard to achieve a level of balance, but know yourself that the balance can be precarious, to have someone diminish all you’ve been through and continue to work on. I don’t know anyone who desires to be mentally ill. When you are, it’s about the hardship, the struggle, and the balancing act of functioning that makes holding that title important, so that awareness is maintained. Hang onto the truth.
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Schizophreniform illnesses are quite manageable these days. Don’t think anyone has found a cure for Scientology yet.
Pixel.
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I feel your pain. I had a disability evaluator laugh in my face and told me my doctor was an idiot for labeling me as schizophrenic. I cried during the evaluation and she just sat there staring at me from over her glasses with this mocking, smug look.
I wish I hadn’t cried. I wish I’d called her incompetent and foolish for believing my wonderful acting job of playing normal. The whole time I knew that the ca was recording the entire thing and analyzing my behavior. Ironically, these persecution delusions actually soothed me and I stopped crying. Even though this one disability evaluator might not see my thought patterns, the ca does and they know I’m schizophrenic. 
And that’s all that matters, right, spooks who read this on a daily? lol
I come in peace, by the way, spooks 
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Ive never been to a hospital. Dont even know if australia has them
I remember I told a doctor at a hospital I knew the faculty was watching, recording, and analyzing our (as in patients) behavior. That was when I was diagnosed schizoaffictive.
what is the faculty?
staff? or them
Well the staff. The doctor said he does all the observations but I think I argued against that, that one person may be recording us and stuff.
i know i have about 3 volumes covering about 12 years of schizophrenia that can back up the fact that i have problems, i am sure you have probably got a few volumes on it too, it can be hurtful though when someone says things like that bc its as if they are calling you a liar and thats not nice at all. i just ignore crap like that now whenever i see it. wish i didnt have this condition though.
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oh really, it’s only the doctor? man this whole time i thought the staff was doing the same thing…
i’ve been thinking the mental health techs have been writing info down on my charts for a decade! hmmm perhaps they were not sabotaging me as I thought…or some of them anyways.
THAT’S EXACTLY WHAT I WAS THINKING! One nurse though when I first arrived and to take my blood, she wrapped the rubber band real tight around my arm. I could go on and on about how jerks work at these places, even the ones who do take notes.
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His opinion doesn’t matter. Maybe the guy said it just to get a reaction from you. A doctor diagnoses you, not some random guy from cyberland. Who are you going to believe, a psychiatrist (I assume you might be seeing a doctor) who’s had years of medical training and years of experience in the mental health field or some random guy on a forum? I stayed out of the hospital for 25 years, if someone had come up to me and said I wasn’t mentally ill anymore during that span, I wouldn’t have believed him because me and my doctor know what’s going on with me. If someone right here on these forums told me I wasn’t mentally ill anymore I wouldn’t go by what they say. That’s their opinion, but it’s wrong.
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You know, a criminal profiler who was a professor mine used to work at both mental institutions and prisons. He said three places of employment attract controlling, aggressive, domineering personalities who like to lord over subservient people:
JAILS
MENTAL WARDS
and one that I don’t want to mention cuz I’m feeling paranoid…
but this is from a guy who wrote an internationally acclaimed book on criminal behavior!
I still wonder why they don’t put the mental health techs through a psych evaluation of their own before getting the right to work in a hospital.
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I much more enjoy outpatient facilities. They give me case managers and they don’t feel like they are trying to undermine you’re enjoyment or try to basterdize you. It’s go it’s quirks but it’s a great place to be.
I have 3 volumes from 1978-2007/8(when I asked for my notes) . There is nothing for the period 1975-77. I guess those records got lost/were deleted/or were just not made available. That’s a lot of records for a person who supposedly is not mentally ill.
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I’m jealous that dark sith gave you a nut lol.
Don’t listen to Scientologists. It’s a tragedy that their brand of crazy can’t be helped my meds 
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We’re the real deal, baby!
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