Sigh… I’m really going through the pits of hell with my eating disorder right now. The binge/purge cycle is out of control. I almost passed out purging tonight, I need help but I don’t know where to get the help. I have therapy this coming week I figure I’ll start there but I don’t know if therapy twice a month is gonna cut it. This has completely taken over my life and I hate what this is doing to me.
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It’s tough having insatiable hunger and cravings and adverse to weight gain. I wish there is something I could say. There is probably eating disorder helplines you can call. I’d start calling them to see what help you can get.
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My sister suffered from bulimia many years ago and what helped her was years of therapy specifically with a ED therapist and also she gained strength and encouragement from going to weekly overeaters annynomous meetings. They are peer led support groups. You could see if there are any in your area.
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I feel for you. I hope that you’re able to find professional help. But the forum is always there if you need to chat about it.
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I really feel for you. I don’t know what it is to have an eating disorder, but I’ve been overweight not so long ago (around 115kg max, I should weight around 90kg now).
All I can say is that I’m pretty sure that bulimia doesn’t give you the healthy body (and appearance) you may be striving for. To be, feel and appear healthy it requires a lifestyle change imo…
https://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/
They have an online chat and a text line. They can help you find resources in your area that cooperate with your insurance. There may or may not be any resources to find, but if they’re there, these guys can find them
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Thanks for the encouragement guys. I’m really going through it right now…
Good luck with everything @Hanna_Foxx
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I’ve seen what eating disorders do to people; Iong ago I lived with several young women who binged and purged. Maybe this is stating the obvious but you should get whatever help is out there and go to almost any lengths to deal with this and take care of this problem. Any lengths that are safe and legal that is. Good luck.
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Not gonna lie it’s gotten really bad. Tonight was awful, I feel disgusted with myself and I also am scared that I keep having this impulsion. I’m scared of the damage I’m doing to myself, I have a severe headache right now and pressure behind my eyes, my face is swollen and I have burst blood vessels around my eyes from purging. It’s like I can’t control myself anymore. I can’t control myself around food so I eat too much then I feel guilty so I make myself sick. Then I feel guilty about making myself sick because I know I’m doing damage. I hate myself
Who’s helping you? You need to reach out and find help for this. You need someone like a case worker or a therapist or a psychiatrist to find all the resources they can. I know there’s clinics and programs that specialize in helping people with eating disorders, maybe your insurance would pay for you to be an inpatient at one of these clinics. Otherwise I would say attending a 12 step group could help or some other support group. I feel for you, I saw what this disorder did to young women and getting help is a matter of life or death.
I just saw you went on a six mile run. Is that safe? I know some anorexics and bulimics use excess exercise to lose weight and it could be bad for your heart and your health in general.
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Thanks for your genuine concern I appreciate it. I see a therapist twice a month and a psychiatrist every three months. I’m going to ask for a referral to see a dietician who specializes in eating disorders, I think my insurance would cover one.
As for the running I’m training for a half marathon. I do use exercise as a way to burn calories but it’s much healthier to run than it is to force myself to vomit my food.
Do you like peanut butter? I find that peanut butter and whole grain bread is really good for stopping junk food cravings. Peanut butter is a bit junky even though it is considered healthy in moderation. Eat a couple peanut butter sandwiches on whole grain bread for breakfast and lunch and see if it limits your cravings.
It can put strain on your heart which is already strained from the vomiting. Be careful.
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I do like peanut butter. I like to have it with apples or celery not so much on bread. When I’m able to stick to my calories I eat super healthy, it’s just with any type of sweet or junk food I have zero self control and eat way too much then make myself sick after to try to stop the weight gain
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Ahh yeah I didn’t think of that.
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I’m the same way I binge on junk too. I cant buy cookies or anything sweet or I will eat the whole package at one time. I never purge, but in the days after I binge I basically just eat very little.
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Just be careful.
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I passed out after purging today. I don’t know if it was my heart though. I almost called 911 but I started feeling better
That’s serious, I never heard of that before. I know excess vomiting can cause dehydration.
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