I’ve been struggling bad with my Bulimia for the last 6 months. It’s caused a number of health issues and recently I had a seizure at work and when they found out about my Bulimia it’s like they stopped looking for answers and just assumed that was why. My electrolytes were out of wack is what they said and I was dehydrated.
Anyway today I’m really struggling. Just binged and now I’m super hard fighting the urge to make myself throw up. I just called a friend then went for a walk but I just got back and I want to shower but I’m afraid I’ll purge in the shower. Does anyone have positive ED recovery distraction tips?
I watched ALOT of happy people eating on YouTube. Some of them were boarderline binging. EMDR technique… I had to force myself to like food again. Some of them are triggering, but it was worth the try.
Now I can eat food and have better appetite. I can cook now also.
Hey, you know what the problem is. You’re willing to work towards a fix although it probably won’t happen as fast as you want (it never does). You’re also putting all the other building blocks in place. I know you’re feeling down and like you’ve failed, but I’m seeing someone well along the path to recovery and who is doing a bang up job. I think you should be giving yourself a well-earned pat on the back. Really.
I just really don’t want to slip up and make this effect my mental health more than the ED. My depression and suicidal thoughts and self harm have been good for about 6 months now and as far as SZA symptoms go they are few and far between I’d hate to end up in the hospital for my ED after doing so good for so long. My dad says I need to be stable for a year without being in the hospital before I consider adding college classes with full time employment and I think he’s right. I don’t want to set myself back yet again