When I was little I had hallucinations, and sometimes I actually heard the things/people in my paintings/pictures talking, or even saw them moving.
I also saw horrible faces in them sometimes (I still do see faces in things) that scared me so much I had my mom take certain paintings out of my room, like a painting of flowers. (My mom was very confused lol)
Mirrors. There were people behind any mirror constantly watching me. I decided to take down all the mirrors in my house, and cover the ones that were to big with towels.
I remember being about 14 or 15 walking home from school with my friends. I was waiting to cross the road, looked to the other side and there was my Mum and she waved to me. I eventually crossed the busy road, but couldn’t see my Mum, so I assumed she’d walked on without me. When I got home she was indoors ironing a batch of washing, she hadn’t even been out all day. A straight forward hallucination, there was no paranoia, no fear, no dellusion. This, as far back as I can remember, was one of the first signs of my paranoid schizophrenia. Around about 14 I also started getting paranoid panic attacks, terrible shakes, still get this now, been plagued with it all my adult life. I developed social phobia and I covered this up from 16 to 25 with booze. A couple of days past my 25th birthday I had a full blown psychosis. I’d been progressively losing touch with reality and in many situations it was as if I had blinkers on.
too many to mention…but when i was 9/10…
i remember a human being appearing infront of me…first i saw the internal organs…then the skeleton started to appear…
it got freaky after that.
oh yeah and a yeti came out of the bushes at the end of the garden…i lived in the countryside.
take care
I myself, often have such issues but I’m clever enough and that often makes a difference…
Always a problem with a schizophrenic if your clever enough! Often we can’t see our own weakness and often we don’t do what is necessary to do well with things…
Talking to Eminem. We shared thoughts and ideas, became really close, and started dating. Literally all I did was have conversations with eminem. We would imagine things and the other would be able to see… We shared everything. Its like we shared a mind for a little while. And it still gets me to this day because I know its impossible… But it felt so real. Honestly like who was I talking to? And he acted just like Eminem. Like literally I watch and follow Eminem online and on TV and stuff (I’ve always been a huge fan and always loved everything he did) ■■■■ I don’t know. This is really embarrassing and I haven’t told anyone about it. But it was so real. And I felt like a badass because Eminem was my best friend for a while. I’m kind of glad I had this experience but I can’t wait to get to heaven and ask god WTF really happened. There’s some instances that I remember where I’m like… There’s no other explanation than that was Eminem. It goes deeper than I’m explaining its just hard to explain. I wish someone would understand.
I’m not a big fan of tennis… but for some strange reason I had a delusion with Carlos Moya… i saw his name on street signs… restaurants… books… i thought he could see me from the spy cam in my air conditioner… i would write long letters in MSWord and i thought he could read it… its like having an imaginary friend.