I started smoking weed when I was 13. My friends mom was a biker and she gave us a joint. By the time I was 18 my addiction problems were out of control. When I was 18 the first thing I did in the morning was smoke a joint and open a bottle of liquor. I had all the liquor I wanted for free. My step brother worked at a liquor store. He would steal liquor when he took out the trash. We had a 4 ft long cooler we kept in the back yard full of fifths. It had at least 20 bottles in it at a time. For 4 years I was trashed from the time I woke up until the time I went to sleep. Every day was a party. I was taking other drugs too. I would have 4 or 5 things in my system at once. When I woke up half the time I couldn’t remember the night before. By the time I was 20 my life was a train wreck. I started getting paranoid. At first I thought my friends were plotting against me. I started seeing things that weren’t there. My mind was playing tricks on me. I turned full on psychotic. I started building grand conspiracies in my head. At this time it was causing a lot of friction in the house between my mom and step dad. I started thinking the FBI was watching me. Then I started thinking my step dad was putting subliminal messages in my head. One night I planned on killing him because I though he was behind me losing my marbles. It all culminated with my step dad threatening my mom with a gun. He got arrested and my mom got a restraining order. My mental state kept declining over the following months. I wouldn’t walk in front of the windows because I thought the FBI was watching. I had severe psychosis for 9 months until one day I snapped and started hearing voices. My mom tricked me into going out of the house and she took me to the hospital. They drugged me to the max and it brought me out of the psychosis. I’ve been on Zyprexa ever since. It’s been 22 years since my hospitalization. I often wonder if I didn’t do drugs would I not have gotten schizophrenia.
Any one else have psychosis from doing drugs or addiction?
yea they say thats what awoke a gene that was laying dorment in my brain, i have mental health problems on both sides of my family, n i was a full blown addict i was in bad shape i was already tryin suicide becouse i just couldnt take waking up every single moring sick as heck n having to watch my parents in pain becouse of me throwing my life away, so i started qiuting everything at once cold turkey, n i made it n got off then sevral times but always eneded up right back were i was , n teh last time is whe i had a complte breakdown
sorry for the misspelling , but because of me stooping the drugs cold turkey so many times, it awoke the scidz gene that i always had, but was told becouse of me putting myself through so much trauma by qiuting the way that i did, i would somtimes lay for days without sleep or food n i just kinda broke, they said my brain just couldnt take all the pain of no sleep n pain that comes with qiuting drugs all at once , and ive ben tryin to live with scidz right now im doin better than i have n a long time , but i know im just a bad away from having a another breakdown, n they said ever time it last longer n longer and im doin more n more damage to my brain and the next time i may not wake from the illusions n ill have to be hospitalized for good, i hate taking the meds , but i know now that there the only think keeping me to the point were i can go out n go places n talk to people n i look n seem fine on the outside but on the inside im a wreck most of the time, but by loosing everything including the will to live and getting off drugs and making it through the torture of bein an addict , after bein stripped of everything you thought you were , u find that the smallest things are important , i am pushing myself now n i will try an keep forcing myself to go out more n do things more and help around the house more , and just live day by day, its so hard for me to think of all the what IFs , what if i have a trouble day n i snap, what it i have a family emergency what if i find i have even worse health problems becouse of the life style i use to live, i try to think positive but its so hard somtimes, thanks everyone…
Good luck with your recovery. It’s been 20 something years since I’ve done drugs. It took a long time for me to put the pieces of my life back together after addiction. I found that hobbies and having something to invest my time in helped a lot.
Yeah drugs probably triggered/sped up the sz for me. Any drug now at nearly any dose is psychosis. Which saddens me in a junkie sort of way because id like to do the odd psychedelic, but cant! Mega sadface
My schizophrenia started from meth. It started small and just grew. I used to do meth, stay up for several nights and experience delusional thinking like the police or feds are in the woods. A good nights rest and some food and my belly and I was right as rain! No more crazy thoughts. My meth addiction continued on over the years, always the same symptoms that would always go away with some shut eye…UNTIL ONE DAY the symptoms didn’t go away. I pretty much gave myself schizophrenia. I am much better today.
My friend who abused research chemicals ended up developing sz. He’s doing much better now than the day I met him. Less disheveled and when he talks it makes sense.
He told me the same would happen to me if I didn’t quit. Haven’t used research chems or cough syrup at all in the year 2019.