theres a strong chance my psychosis was drug induced and not schizophrenia (though it did persist after stopping the drug)
maybe psychotic depression as the themes of my hallucinations are most like that and also having insight and basically challenging delusions within weeks of psychosis onset before even getting on meds.
i feel like theres a chance i may be able to function better than i am now if not consumed by the anxiety and depression and side effects of meds. my hallucinations are practically inexistant now on meds and have been for a couple years.
i like this community but i feel some posts are counterproductive to those with alot of anxiety (especially agoraphobia and overthinking) and at the stage im at in my life i want to be able to do all the stuff normal people can do or at least try.
im not saying im gonna quit meds or that im completely normal but i know my symptoms are not like most and considering ive never been hospitalized or gotten in legal trouble for doing anything during psychosis i may have a milder condition.
also my first pdoc diagnosed me with brief psychotic disorder, although that might change considering i first started seeing them 4 years ago and have been on various meds since then with multiple depressive episodes and 1 or 2 times of hallucinations returning, usually triggered by something.
i notice within the past year ive been seeing alot of things saying hallucinations are not always psychosis or schizophrenia, but can be symptoms of other conditions
@cigarino It’s always nice to see your contribution to the forum and you should come as long as it’s helpful to you no matter your diagnosis but if it’s not helping you or bothering you in some way I can totally understand if you feel you don’t want to come anymore. Lots of people outgrow the forum and only come back once in awhile to check in.
im not saying im going to leave i just feel a little weird because the even the name of the forum is schizophrenia, tho i do know there are other members with psychotic disorders other than sz
They nearly diagnosed me with SZ when I was 17, as it was very severe psychosis.
My drugs worker stopped them doing that, but I remember it was close.
The second episode was even worse. I was totally disconnected from reality and it took a few weeks for me to be able to actually communicate words and have spatial awareness.
They were pretty much the same. I could have got away with one episode and never have been put on meds full time.
College stress was the trigger for me on the second one. If I had not gone to college, I may have been ok, but you can’t tell.
Every relapse I have had since the third has been very mild by comparison to the first two