Does any one feel like the voices control all your thoughts and actions and feelings?
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They certainly try to, but I don’t always listen.
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Which meds and dosage did you try?
It seems that your meds are working but not 100%. Did you tell your psychiatrist about your issues?
In early years of my schizophrenia, My office boss often used to come into my mind and changes my emotions/ feelings and used to inject cruel feelings towards my family members. Due to this I used to have fight with my family members for small small things. After fighting, I used to become relax for some time. But again next day , my boss had come inside my mind and altered my feelings to cruelity towards my family members. The above things happened to me for some years.
They try to control my actions. They are insane liars.
I used to at one point, but I’ve learned through therapy not to give them any control over me, physically nor emotionally.
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I don’t do what they say anymore. I just spent an entire night being told to “get off the game” while playing video games. Must have heard it 200 times. I just ignored it and kept on playing.
You can’t let them decide your actions, they’ll get you in lots of trouble. Back when I listened to them 5 years ago they made me drive my truck onto the freeway as fast as I could and I totaled it, could have gotten really hurt.
They used to. Not anymore.
YES. Absolutely. They consume every aspect of my life. I’m constantly in flight-or-fight mode which is terrifying and draining because of what the entities do to me. 
Yeah that’s weird they told me the same thing last night when I was playing with friends
Do you listen to them?
I mainly suffer from severe dissociation. When I drink energy drinks I think I get mild psychosis. It’s been an every day thing. It does something to me. Seems to be rare for people, but not for me. I have a strong, big heart. I don’t exercise because of the energy drinks, which is pretty stupid of me. I need to quit them.
I only had hypnogogic hallucinations. Even when I was really ill and off meds I never hallucinated or heard voices, just had paranoia and dissociation. I wasn’t abused as a kid. I had a normal loving family.
So I must have got the dissociation in college from trauma or my dad’s verbal abuse growing up, which looking back wasn’t that bad. People had it worse. My step-father was a jerk and neglected things. He used to ignore me growing up.
When I’m severely dissociated from DP, I lack free will and think the universe is deterministic and I feel robotic. It has given me philosophical insight. It was horrible though and I wouldn’t wish it upon anyone.
I’m going to try harder in life and quit them. I need to do something with my life. I decided I won’t ask for an increase in Strattera. I think it’s working enough and I’m doing well. So far, only positives for me.
I often felt like a puppet on a string, literally.
The caffeine increases the dissociation. Prior to 2015, one of my psychiatrists said she didn’t think I ever experienced or had psychosis. But she later changed her mind and backtracked. She said things changed. She gave me adderall at the height of my paranoia, which caused an emotional break from reality.
At one point, she thought I had a severe personality disorder. Not sure which one.
On online tests, I score high for avoidant personality disorder. It’s true. I avoid people when they piss me off and I get stressed out. I also don’t like conflict.
I used to get intrusive thoughts, but not anymore thanks to prior supplement use and high dose of meds. I finally found the right cocktail of meds.
I often think (my theory) that my schizophrenia is caused by a breakdown between realities. Basically, I think I remember things from other lives (have you seen Man in the High Castle?). It affects my thoughts, feelings, emotions, delusions, and behavior. I hypothesized delusions don’t exist because they come from parallel universes. But they have to be possible even if they are extremely unlikely. They have to obey the laws of physics. I’ve seen some weird ■■■■in my other lives like teleportation and ■■■■. It’s possible, we just haven’t figured it out yet.
It’s like other realities bleed through for me in this life. Sometimes when I am dreaming or awake. It’s bizarre but it has a quantum aspect to it. People don’t understand it but I think Michio Kaku talked about it. He’s a world renowend physicist who is also a futurist.
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I do my best not to. But it is a struggle when they are doing/saying things to me day and night (including multiple night terrors every night!).
They give me crazy dreams but not scary they gave me a dream about star wars and clones cuz they say their gonna clone me
They have told me one time that they want to breed me…creepy.
No they don’t control my actions but that was after learning what they were about. They control some of my thoughts.
I felt like the voices even controlled MY very own thoughts. Very fking scary. Like I was aware that the thoughts and beliefs weren’t mine but I couldn’t stop it. Maybe that’s what they call posessession
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Alien sometimes controls my thoughts and adds his own. On rare occasions he tries to control my body as well. But recently he’s been fairly quiet.
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They keep proving it to me that they control my mind but when I ask them to prove it by slapping my self they cant so i think it’s all a lie
I also think it has to do with energy fluctuations. How certain periods of the day/night may be more accessible to manipulate the body/mind.