Do you ever feel like the audio hallucinations have a tight grip on you, meaning they never want to leave you alone because they find you odd. I tried so many medications but the voices never seem to subside. They always want me to be thinking about that past and specifically about one guy. I feel like they’re getting high on my life.
“you got to act a certain way, or else.” is on repeat in my mind. They want me to be nice to them but how can I when I’m so bitter. Bitter about the idea that they have always been mentally repressing me and my growth in this world. How can I swallow my pride and be their toy, a toy that doesn’t fight back? I wish there was a way to create good by arguing and not submitting to this entity. I want schizophrenia to know that it can’t be hurting us like this. We are not puppets but entities with a conscience to grow and develop peace.
Yeah, I have periods where the talking is practically non-stop. Other times it could be a few comments a day, an hour, or maybe silence for a few months at a time. It’s super frustrating when it’s constant. Arguing with the voices hasn’t helped me yet, but sometimes taking a break for a moment, doing something else, and then switching back to what I was doing before helps.
I try to ignore my voices as much as possible.
The more I interact with them. The more power they get.
I have the same problem. My voices are superegotistical and mean/abusive/controlling.
I can’t tell about voices, i never heard them.
I can tell you in this context a story that happens to me, years ago.
I was sitting on my bed and saw a shadow coming thru the closed door.
I came in big fear, it stands there without moving.
I shouted loud at this shadow to leave my room.
The shadow gone and i was happy, i felt big, very big that i could control this “ghost”.
A few days later i lost my mind completly, i got in my first psychosis.
Why i write this?
I don’t know.
I didn’t see such an illusion again.
Only a shadow of a little dragon flying around me last time.
Yeah and we comment to ourselves that we’re mad, but that doesn’t help.
Hopefully sometime I could see it as a sort demonic Force.
For it’s courses me great anxiety saying I’m mad hourly
They used to before I stopped taking them seriously. Now they are just background noise to tune out.
are you only experiencing psychosis or schizophrenia? that’s strange that you don’t hear voices but also great.
Did their personality ever change?
At first the voices claimed that they were people i had once met. Then they became a homogonized animated voice. Long story.
Yeah now its basically one voice
Jeez that’s scary.
I’ve got thoughts without voices @raccon if i look at this exactly, if you understand, can’t take it exactly in words.
Perhaps my “Voices” didn’t learn to talk or cant do this.
I think for me i’m a wrong diagnosed autist with some psychotic episodes.
Sometimes “they” take my body, i was very irritated the first times, watching yourself what you’re doing.
Good question raccon, thx
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