Whats been going on with my mind while dealing with schizophrenia.
I have been dealing with voices that don’t stop and been trying to interact with me for a very long time.
Some times while they talk tome my mouth is forced open while they talk in a open and closed movement that is like mimicking talking movement with my mouth. I also get sensations that are presser like on my head while they are talking that fluctuates while they speek at times.
The voices also interact with my mined while showing pictures that aren’t like how I would normally pull up in my head while imagining something or remembering a place or thing. They pull up like flash cards with pictures in my mined but very blurred at times while the voices interact with me. They also show me them selves as some sort of creature that almost resembles a lizard while they interact with each other or me while they pop up in my head.
They repeat what I think most of the time like as if I was talking in a mic and listening to in my headphones in different voices that are like bad speakers or like mechanical robots. I also hear them in other sounds that are present around me while the A/C is running or the refrigerator runs and in the fan as well as traffic, they even talk to me while I hear my own mined sometimes and repeat what I thought in words over and over.
I can’t pull up images often in my mined anymore while thinking of people or places, it’s become very limited. My voice in my mined has fully stopped while the out side voices have taken over and I hear my mined in the outside voices. The voices sometimes invade my thoughts as if they have control over my thinking.
My cognitive thinking isn’t there much any more and my memory is going. I forget what I’m doing and what I just said to someone or place things. I can’t recall what I eat for breakfast most of the time or what day it is.
I get jerking in the jaw while the mussels snap on one side and then to the other,
I’m very sorry you are experiencing this. I suppose one of the obvious questions would be; are you on meds? I think they help a ton. I also feel like I have mind control going on and it’s worse without meds. Tell your pdoc what is going on and maybe get a med adjustment.
I was maxed out on haldol and Invega shots and some others that I don’t recall the names of. Sadly none have worked and dealt with the side effects for a long time. Then did not silence the voices or re leaved the symptoms I’ve been having. The doctor understood that I needed to take a brake from all the meds. Her next trial she had in mind would be one where I would need blood tests every week to check my white blood cell count to make sure that it does not drop.
Gosh, well I hope you get it figured out. It doesn’t sound like much fun