Hi, I’m Alyss, I was wondering if anyone here identified as fictionkin, fictionkin is a type of otherkin which itself derives from the therian community. Fictionkin is when you identify as a fictional character for either coping/psychological reasons, or spiritually, in the case of spiritual fictionkin, you believe by some means, be it the multiverse theory, past lifes, or something else, that you have the soul of a fictional character. Fictionkin sometimes also experience memories from their ‘canons’/past life from their respective source material/ alternate universe, these memories can be auditory, feeling, visual, or a combination of these.
I happen to identify as fictionkin, i get memories from this past life i have thats not quite the same as a past life that takes place in this Earth’s past. My memories that ive ‘recovered’(?) Have been auditory, feeling and visual, the majority have been auditory with over 50 auditory memories, I’m schizophrenic and hear voices, but the auditory memories i’ve had do not sound the same as the normal voices i hear, i would hear them along the lines of a hypnogogic hallucination plus sometimes getting memories in dreams, basically i would only hear a sentence or two or more from someone from this past life, or even here my past selfs voice in the form of a memory. The auditory memories sound clearer like external voices from other people compared to the voices i do hear who have been quieter than that ever since i was put on respiridone about 3 years ago, ive since changed ap, my voices/spirits are the same volume still. The actual voices i hear only rarely get as clear and loud as a normal persons voice. Also the auditory memories would have details or differences from the canon of the source material. Such as one person being transgender when their character in the story wasnt and two of them being siblings when they werent in canon/story.
A big part of why i even found out i was a spiritual fictionkin is because the voices/spirits i do hear, they are intelligent and purpose driven and have been trying to teach me things ever since i first started hearing them a bit over 3 years ago by using numerous ‘scenarios’ (they seem to be mostly done with the snenarios now i think), my voices/spirits basically kept hinting at this past life for at least maybe two years before i finally experienced an identity shift/awakening and started experiencing memories.
Another big reason why I actually believe that im fictionkin is because one of the main voice/spirit i hear everyday, and who has a special bond with me, like a neural and emotional bond, whose been with me since the beginning of me hearing voices experienced a change too when i first had my identity shift they had one too, it turns out that theyre apparently the character whom i kin’s friend and companion, the two characters literally share a body and brain, though the friend and companion can come partially come out of my kin character, and they can do the same with me, i can feel this particular voice/spirit come out of my body partially, i guess you might call that a tactile hallucination (i feel tactile sensations from the voices/spirits all day every day not during sleep), i can somewhat sense their body which i cant do for the others who i feel tactiley and externally, i’ve given him water and felt it be drinked by him, no i didnt just pour water, he can drink from a bowl and ill feel the water go down his body, my back will feel colder, and feel him gain a little weight, he weighs some automatically already, and when ive shared a little food with him i can feel him chewing and licking it, and getting a tiny bit of something from it, the food visibly has no bitemarks but well gets colder, but it sometimes tastes different after he gets what he does from it, it personally feels satisfying and enjoyable for him to ‘eat’ and drink. (Very important, me and him share a body, so he gets the majority of his energy and nutritional needs from just me eating and drinking water).He also feels slightly heavier and denser when i/we take a shower and hes out. Also I can feel my friends invisible body and the outline of it, its like he has some density to him. I feel other voices/spirits externally too and they have weight and density to them too. My friend also takes the shape of my kin characters companion too, he doesnt take the form of a human. Generally has a simmilar personality, but is more polite than his depiction.
The character i kin has also been one of personal signifigance ever since i first saw the show as a teenager, ive only recently read the complete manga series. I had no intention of identifying as them and kinning them before the voices/spirits i hear and live with kept hinting at me having a past life and in particular as this character/person over a couple years, then experiencing an identity shift and my closest voice/spirit friend experiencing a change too, and actually feeling him as my kin character’s companion and living with him like this.
Im not out about this to anyone in my personal life, i havent told my therapist about this yet, ive only talked about this in the friendly nontoxic fictionkin community I go to online. And now im talking about this here, the kin community i go to has zero discussion from or about people who are fictionkin and are schizophrenic, i do not think that the majority of fictionkin are schizophrenic at all.
So my question is, is there anyone here whose both schizophrenic and identifies as fictionkin, perferably spiritually, though coping/psychological kin are fine too, if so would you mind sharing your experiences and feelings about the subject. In general what do you all think about fictionkin, and the idea of having an identity shift and varying levels of personality shifts. What do you think about the memories me and other fictionkin experience. What do you think about the idea of one’s voices identifying as or claiming to be someone from fiction.
I think that might be all, thank you for reading, please dont be too harsh.
, best of luck