I have processed some of my memories in therapy before but it didn’t really help
I have SZA depressive type and I have PTSD. I’m currently in a support group for people with complex PTSD. You’re not alone.
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I have sza bipolar type and ptsd. Trying to find a trauma therapist to help me with th ptsd and dissociation, but that search isnt yielding many results.
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@Dreamer. Have you checked out https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/therapists?utm_source=PT_Psych_Today&utm_medium=House_Link&utm_campaign=PT_HomeTopB_Therapist1
You can search by your insurance and issues and even treatment styles.
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I have, but theres so many names that pop up and I honestly get overwhelmed. I try to do it in small increments these days. I have more trouble with dissociation these days than flashbacks though. My current treatment told me to find a dissociative disorder specialist, which is hard in of itself.
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Is there someone willing to do the leg work for you since you’re not well enough right now yourself?
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My treatment team is looking when they can. But they clinics understaffed and has a lot if clients.
That sucks. I hope you get help soon.
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Cooked, near death experience. That’s the only time you get it.
@Dreamer are you willing to disclose the nearest major city to you?
Yes. I have it from a sexual assualt by a neighbor from when I was ten. The memories came back to me in July two years ago but I’ve been in therapy ever since coupled with a high dose of Prozac so I’m getting better.
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I have sza mixed bipolar type w rapid cycling, ptsd and gad w agoraphobia.
My current therapist says people either are angry w themselves or w the abusers. I’m outside on the steps. Doing this is therapy for me. It is almost non existent.
I did some emdr therapy to work on ptsd, but it became a problem again. I attempted suicide over what I remembered.
I’m here for you, but if you need more info, pm me. I’m happy to help.
I’m sorry I hope you get help soon
@JustTrish I will pm you soon
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I have sza bipolar type and ptsd. My ptsd symptoms have resolved since the death of my abuser and much work on processing the abuse on my own and in therapy. But there is hope, I’m free.
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PTSD abusive ex…I’m so overtired…like being able to talk her…just me and Oppenheimer…guys this day is hard
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I have ptsd
I’m a firm believer in “personal assessment of trauma”
Like some people may think when I got pulled out of my car at gunpoint pointed right at my face that it should cause ptsd. But that wasn’t scary to me at all. I was too psychotic to be scared. And getting sucker punched in the face and hapless violence against me…in moderate amounts but still. I didn’t find that to be too traumatic
However there are two events. One from 11 and one from 19. The 19 was the worst thing that ever happened to me, while the 11 year old thing built roots in at a young age and affected me greater.
Don’t let anyone ever downplay your traumas.
I have had NDE but that wasn’t nearly as traumatic as what happened to innocent 11 year old me. So it’s all about perspective. And F anyone who tells you to just get over it or suck it up. Seriously.
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Isn’t it amazing what we sz can take
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We almost become numb to further pain and stuff as time goes on.
I tell my therapist a lot of things that bother me. But she’s all about the ROOT. the original source of the trauma. What really caused my brain chemistry and dna to change in the first place. That was the incident at 11. If I had children, their dna will be effected from my emotional abuse. According to my professor 
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I can’t even see a therapist…wtf they forget everything and every visit is a I totally don’t remember anything about you…but yeah getting fuc$$…with as a kid let me just store that with the other fragments of hell.
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