Yeah I worry about the big picture and the little details.
We need to expand and show our plumage, when we hear the mating call 
Most of the time, yes.
Some days I canāt be bothered.
Iām very insecure of my arms so like to wear long sleeves or like a long sleeve sweater thing over a tank topā¦
Iāve also started watching what Iām eating and exercising some days.
So yeah, i guess you could say I worry about it
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I feel like all my personal worth is directly related to how I look. And because Iām overweight and donāt look good, I feel worthless.
Being married to a former Mr. Michigan doesnāt help because heās a chiseled body builder even with his spine injuries.
Heās so good at being motivated. I exercise but not with the same intensity. Iām just too tired.
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Of course I do! I feel even annoyed while looking at the mirror.
While somedays I am feeling pretty, there are days when I hate myself
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Yes, but not like most people do. Itās not an insecurity thing, nor entirely about wanting to improve my attractiveness, there is a vanity component but what really drives it home for me is thinking it like this:
If I had a girlfriend, and she was kind of chubby and she decided to take care of her body better how would I see it? As a blessing.
If I have to look at someone, all things being equal, do I prefer to look at someone I find beautiful or someone I donāt? And if I prefer looking at the one I donāt is it for a good reason? No itās not because unless I am jealous or some other unworthy sh*t I prefer looking at someone whom I find beautiful.
So basically at the end of the day I came to the realization that itās kind of spiteful of me to not look beautiful because people kind of have to see me to an extent and wouldnāt the world be a better place if everyone looked great?
Look I am not saying that I count looking good as a good deed, but I do sort of count looking bad as a bad deed in many circumstances, if itās on the person. Plus I see it this way, if I have a girlfriend at some point sheād appreciate me looking my best for herself and I guess I owe it to any mythical woman who may throw her lot in with me to look better than her bottomline for being with me, you know?
P.S. Oh, I almost forgot, I think I owe it to my opinions as well. I think they are quite good and novel and they deserve to not be dragged down by the effects of beauty bias making them be associated with the proverbial basement dweller.
P.P.S. Donāt get me wrong, I think all people should be uglier than their peers at some point in their lives. If youāve never been ugly since being attracted to whatever you are attracted to, you have a massive hole in your ability to truly understand your fellow human. Youāll see glimpses when you are old but you wonāt learn much that way. Itās one thing knowing intellectually what it means to be unattractive during your reproductive years, itās another living it. I was never repulsive, I think, and possibly people should try that one too, but at least trying the unattractive pill and the attractive pill gives you a better estimate of whatās lying in both directions.
Yes.
I lost 169 pounds back in 2019/2021 while on olanzapine - I know, but it agreed with me. It stopped working, so I started the med-go-round back in early 2022.
Have gained 85 pounds back, and I feel so bad about myself. My tummy looks pregnant. I had 9 different people ācongratulateā me back in late 2021/early Feb 2022 on my ābundle of joyā when I still worked retail, and I weighed 35 pounds less back then. Needless to say, I was in tears every time it happened.
I hate the way I look. And I have bad body dysmorphia, so even though I āstillā weigh a lot less, I still see myself at 300+ pounds, which doesnāt help.
Today happens to be a particularly bad body image dayā¦
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@anon28552576 , Iāve been asked when my due date is. Itās humiliating. I just respond, āoh, Iām not pregnant. Iām just fatā, in hopes they realize they shouldnāt assume things.
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Sometimes I feel weird looking at my own hands and I think what is this. But I donāt feel it that way now though!
Omg I just googled 
it says alien hand syndrome
I thought I was the only one
I say the same! Although Iāve only ever been told I look pregnant by two people. One well meaning person and the other my asswipe of an ex boyfriend. The well meaning person shouldnāt have assumed. And my ex shouldnāt have made me feel ashamed of it. But here we are.
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Iām sorry. Itās a special kind of hell.
I just cried the first couple of times it happened, but I got as hostile as I could while working retail the other times.
Just shut up about personal things like that, Iām here to sell you an effing pair of jeans or a braā¦or clean up your fitting rooms that you leave heaps of clothing on the floor inā¦
I would never assume to tell someone anything like that!! I wonāt even comment on a ānice shirtā or ācute hairstyle.ā I might say, wow you look really great today if I can tell someone feels really happy. But pregnant? Oh my goodness, itās been heartbreaking.
One woman was there with her husband doing an Amazon return (I worked at Kohlās). She very happily congratulated me and was so proud of herselfā¦and I stared right at her and said I AM NOT PREGNANT. She was mortified, as was her husband. We both did our business as quickly as possible, until I broke down in tears again and had to hide it in the middle of a retail store until my next customer approachedā¦hell.
Iāve had my share of transgressions, but I do not āearnā my weight. I fight like crazy.
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@bittercat yeah that hurts. Iām glad it hasnāt happened to you more than that, although even just once really really hurts
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@anon28552576 , im sorry it breaks you down like that. Itās good you are assertive when it happens. But it hurts me and @bittercat and probably everyone else too so youāre not alone.
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Nobody guesses I am pregnant but that is because I am 55 and, even on my best day, I look at least 48. But I gained all my weight right in my stomach. It is big and round and looks just like I am pregnant. I wish it was more evenly distributed.
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I wish I was ugly, or at least plane looking.
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@non-average
Yes. The rest of me is a larger size, but the majority of the weight is in my tummy.
And I was 50 at the time when those 9 people shattered me! Iāve always looked much younger than my age, though at 53 thatās catching up to me.
Between antipsychotics and menopause, Iām screwed! Lol!
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Why would you wish that?
well my skin is getting that thin look to it and wrinkly all over my bodyā¦canāt do anything about itā¦I keep creams on my arms but it doesnāt helpā¦I look good for my age in my face but my body really shows itā¦oh wellā¦I like my looks getting olderā¦I welcome old age.
@anon28552576
Oh, you must look great! I am only 2 years older than you. I get a lot of my stuff from the brand Free People. They are expensive, so I am sparing when I shop with them, but they have a lot of oversized tunics and dresses that are really pretty. I am wearing one of their oversized tops today with leggingās. I go for comfort and to hide that pregnant tummy! lol
Lol. Thatās what i wear too, but from Woman Within and Targetās Ava and Viv line.
I just put away the two parcels I got today in the next size up. My shirts definitely cant hug my tummy at all.
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I hear you. I will have to check out those brands. Thanks!