I obsessively think about my dx and wondering if being here is making it worse…
Maybe you’re obsessed because you’re not busy? Try to be busy, it works for me lots of times.
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I could do courses or something but theres no way I can get out with my grandmothers, so i have to be careful looking for work too…
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Do you know why you obsessively think about your diagnosis? It is normal for diagnosis to change sometimes. Try not to worry about it too much, take your doctors dx once they decide on one, I’m guessing they still have not given you one, seems weird to me.
Actually I used to be annoyed that I didn’t get diagnosed as sz I felt like it was undermining my suffering but hey they seem to know what they’re talking about those pdocs.
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Don’t discount Covid fatigue. I feel a lot of woe being locked up as I am.
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Yes, its because I honestly feel something else mood wise is going on. They do say sza but few say bipolar, and after 10 years I just want to know. They told me they’ll know once I have another episode so here I am. One pdoc said there is no way I have sz because one episode is not enough to dx sz. So here I am now 10 years later with another episode? So is it sz? I am pretty annoyed they took me off the antipsychotic ,… I was alright to stay on it, not keen though but wasn’t objecting to it.
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Can I ask what dose of abilify you’re on?
Yea, hopefully they will give you a dx. Soon.
But whether it’s bipolar or sza either way you know what experience you’ve had and might be good to talk to a therapist for recovery.
Hope they give you a therapist
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You are so lucky your hair doesn’t fall out :’( from abilify.
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I’m on 15mg and omg my hair does fall out I just didn’t realise it was abilify.
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I mean it could be something else, but for me I think abilify thins my hair due to timing of when it started 
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I think this forum is good for us. It is not like work or school where you have to give everything your attention. If you don’t want to read someone’s thread you can just skip it. There are days when I don’t want to hear our belly aching. Then there are days when I really feel I can help.
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i think only good can come from being on a forum like this, if you werent here, you’d probabaly be wasting your time…thats how i view these forums anyway
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It might be more a cases of what Aziz says above. That keeping busy is better?
I thought I had the same issue, then I realised I need to be busier.
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I’m in the same shoes as you @anon80629714
Doctors don’t know how to diagnose me.
My current psychiatrist and therapist have diagnosed me with bipolar but other doctors are eager to diagnose me with schizoaffective.
I can live without a mood stabilizer but I don’t think I can live without my Risperdal, so this might mean that I lean towards a schizoaffective diagnosis.
The truth is that these psych disorders blend in to each other many times.
Sometimes there are no clear cut answers.
If I were you I’d push for a bipolar disorder diagnosis.
There is less stigma associated with it over a schizo type disorder.
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I am in need of a job. I have been looking but just not a lot. I take my time and apply once every few days. It’s just difficult right now.
I want to push for the bipolar diagnosis, as I just want a better treatment plan in place to help me get through my days. They don’t help much but with the right diagnosis I can help myself through self help books etc. I do think I have bipolar however then again I had bizzare delusions and thought broadcasting which can be indicative of sz. My delusions were based around thinking i was the queen reincarnated 
But also had paranoid delusions where I thought people were listening to me through the phone so had to behave
Also @Wave, I read somewhere that even hypomania can cause psychosis , it doesnt matter if you have bipolar 1 you can get psychosis whatever the mood but I am not sure if I read that right…i don’t think my mania was that severe… but then again I am no expert.
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The thing is they may never know your true diagnosis.
Actually it sounds like you possibly could have schizoaffective.
Either way remain on the Abilify.
There are very few differences between bipolar with psychotic features and schizoaffective.
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I understand, always open to chat if it gets too much.
I remember when I was in your position, it was really difficult. I managed to survive through it because of a friend I had at the time, speaking to people can really make a difference when things feel difficult.
All the best either way, it’ll work out. Don’t lose hope
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That’s very nice of you @anon1466656
I think I will be ok, a bit annoyed as I was free of psychosis for 10 years and a dr decided I had a personality disorder so giving me sertraline (an antidepressant)without a mood stabaliser was ok to him. He saw me a few weeks after being on sertraline and after that day I was in hospital with psychosis… damn the man didn’t bother to read my notes it seems.
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