I mentioned before that I was meeting up with an old friend from Highschool who was very important in my life but we had a falling out after having a conjoined psychotic episode together. (Neither of us had insight at the time, probably better we fell out then because with our stability levels we were like oil and fire together)
I just think it’s very interesting how it was differently stored in our memory. For both of us it was the worst episode we’ve ever had. But she apparently doesn’t remember most of it. Whereas that whole time period became burned into my brain and has replayed there over and over for years. I always wanted to forget. I wonder what is the source behind this different response in memory?
Do you clearly remember your psychotic episodes or no? She had memories from her other less severe ones after that but none from that really bad one.
Most of the time I think I can remember memories from the episode I had.
I believe that these memories did capture my experience pretty accurately and that they are relatively reliable, mostly because I tend not to think about that period of time in my life, and therefore I don’t alter them very often.
It depends on what triggered me if it has to do with trauma I’ll forget a lot of what happened and the things I do remember seem very fuzzy. If it’s just naturally caused I normally remember it at least more than a trauma episode. When alters get involved it’s always bizarre cause sometimes it continues with them and other times switching snaps us out of it it’s very odd.
I always remember every breakdown. Even the bad ones. Never figured out why if you were so out of your mind you lose touch with reality yet you can still remember it. Always baffled me
My memory has never been outstanding. I do have a partial recollection of my psychotic episode, though. Some moments were funny, other moments were rather creepy. I never experienced a panic attack, but I was on verge of having one once or twice. My sleep was very poor during psychosis. Voices weren’t constant, but paranoia and delusional rumination were.
yes i remember very well. i would replay things said to me when i was trying to determine what the entities were and wheether they could cause harm. .
i’m missing important info from childhood but i can remember even the feelings during psychosis. it can still make me physically shake recalling the events.
It depends. I remember bits and pieces, usually of the scary stuff. But I think I make myself forget the really scary stuff so I don’t have to worry about it. For the most part I’m just an empty shell, and sometimes I go catatonic when I’m very psychotic so time flies by in a blur when that happens.