Do you remember or block it out?

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I had a very bad dream last night that was my memory filling in a hole from an episode when I was 19.

So much of that incident I don’t remember first hand. I got the details second hand after I stabilized.

I can remember a glitch up to a point… but then it blanks. The images in my mind are so jumbled… my memory just gives up I guess.

I was wondering… do others remember episodes or glitches in first hand… or does the memory fill in later with second hand accounts and slow recollections long after…

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I so know the confusion on memories that do come up. The main rule is try not to force them as that’s where the false memories tend to come into it.

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Last night was a new head circus act…

The huge bad dream that got me screaming in my sleep… I think was the memory trying to fill in.

The deep ocean of my mind… finally letting go of some the past ship wrecks and the debris is floating up and washing ashore 10 years later.

I really hope past episodes don’t become current dreams… I couldn’t take it.

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Memories do come out in dreams. yes. It can also be affected by therapy. Depends though by what type of work you are doing in therapy. Honestly wish I knew more. As I’m going completely around in circles dealing with mine. Which also originally came out in a dream. Had the second part of which come out during a withdrawal of meds trial after about 15 years.

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I always remember my dreams. They are always so vivid too. Last night I had a dream that I was best friends with Obama. We were in some kind of huge wear house full of secret government technology. We got to play with some of them and we took a rocket out into deep space. We were in a pink nebula shooting at asteroids.

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Nizbit. Dreams like that would wear me out too.

A while ago I was having dreams I was tricked into working for the government again and then I find out it’s still as bad as ever. Then I wake up and slowly come to and say, I haven’t worked for the government for 15 years!
Just this week my pdoc reminded me they are not out to do me harm. I just have to let it all go and fade away.

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I remember every relapse and actually like trying to figure out why did I think that ■■■■?

My worse was like 4 years ago with losing a full day. The pdoc said don’t worry about it. And it’s a dark place not to revisit. I got the commitment papers later that said I was saying this was a torture chamber. Yea I would say that, it’s my terminology. So what it’s over and gone.

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I remember things but not when they happened, or for how long. I get time confused a lot.

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I’m not sure what’s worse… remembering an episode in clear detail or not remembering at all.

Either one… sadness.

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i remember my “episodes”. that doesn’t bother me as much as why they happened in the first place. why did i fall for it? how could i have lost my grip on reality to that extent? that’s what bothers me and it bothers me a lot. how on earth could i have been so insane for so long? it’s a conundrum i have to solve and i don’t think i’ll rest until i do to be honest.

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I remember many though some are a blur. The problem for me comes when what I remember doesn’t match what others remember of the incidents. It makes me question myself, which I guess is a good thing, but it’s very uncomfortable.

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Something I notice with my son that may or may not apply here is that his episodes tend to get mixed up. What happened years ago gets confused in with what is happening now. It’s like while experiencing an episode then all episodes become part of that one.

I’m sorry that you are experiencing these glitches. I hope that it gets better for you really soon.

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I’ve been told this also happens to me… epically if the glitch has sort of the same trigger or the same sort of content. There are some re-occurring delusions that will come around again and again.

My family says my time line is all over the board and they have an even harder time figuring out what’s happening.

Tracking devices in my clothing… fire… kidnappers make repeat appearances when I’m not doing well.