Whats the first memory of back then?
My first memory was a slide. Apparently I was two at that age. Can’t remember anything before that.
2 years old I ran into the corner of a table with my chin and got ten stitches
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I remember when we first moved into a new house and I had to pull myself up to the window from the windowsill using my hands to see a train passing by. I think I was one and a half.
I remember fishing at lake with my grandfather.It was rainy day and got biggest fish.
I was a princess for Halloween but thought my friend’s costume Strawberry shortcake seemed so much cooler.
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Lots of things! I remember kindergarten. All the little girls chased me around the schoolyard which back then meant they liked me. Or playing in the sandbox. I had a lot of fun as a kid.
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Mine is pretty bad. I used to go to a Y when I was 7, and there was a deaf girl that went there too. For some reason, I thought that she was defined by her deafness, like that’s the only reason she was alive, to be deaf. I was pretty mean. Anyways, one day I was really curious and went up behind her about 6 inches away from her head and screamed as loud as I could because I thought she couldn’t hear me, she turned around and gave me that look like "what the f@$k are you doing. I looked at her and said, “Oh you’re not deaf anymore! You can hear me now”! She ran away crying and told on m
and told on me. Turns out she could read lips.
I dunno my family hit me alot, and stuff sucked and we were poor. And I was constantly harassed by other kids. I never had any time off, it really wasn’t fun being a kid I sang in a boy choir but most of those guys are just douchebags that come from money the only way I got in is because my mom knew the guy in charge. Go figure. Got me on a european tour, which was really busy and constant bull mess.
I don’t want to go back to being a kid no one ever listened to me, and I hate when people condescend me or try to treat me as a child because of my illness. It’s infuriating and ignorant of them to look down their noses or call me crazy. I put up with alot of stuff without telling anyone, but I’m starting to pour out. And seriously the only good memories I have are of my mothers father my grandfather who dies when I was very young. After he died my life turned dark very quickly.
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I’m sorry to hear that. I come from an abusive child hood as well. I’m very sorry you had to go through that.
Dude void you have no idea, constantly sexually abused, beaten and condescended and forced into a lifestyle only my mother wanted instead of what I wanted. It was a horrible childhood and my sister constantly harassed and tortured me because she was older than me. She would lie to my dad and he would just walk up and start hitting me in the face because she called wolf.
It happened alot, I never fought back from my dad. I didn’t want to fight honestly, but he did. He’s fought me and beat on me often. He’s just very extreme and very demanding and sometimes can get violent to get his point across. I don’t want to mete myself against him, because he called me through my grandmothers phone in july to wish me a happy birthday-he reached out to me. I don’t know what to do, he disarmed me of my weapons by keeping them from me, in which I feel completely defenseless. I’m used to carrying automatic weapons all day to this day even though it was long ago, I would always have a go to. And a family heirloom. I spent thousands on personal defense and all of it was confiscated by him after he betrayed my trust to return the weapons because he condescended me.
I don’t want to get in to it too deep, but the guy has really made a mess out of me lately-and I’m trying to help him and communicate that I’m just an every day person that has to put up with more stress than usual.
Thank him for good medicine, when I meditate.
I remember hearing intrusive thoughts as a child while playing with hand me down legos.
I don’t want to pretend to understand because no one knows what you went through except for you, but it’s good to let it out any chance you get. I resent my father for the things he did and it’s messed up relationships and friendships because of that hate. I feel for you and I know the road to recovery is hard. Not everyone is going to understand you, but the people on here are a safe place for you. 
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I know right? I can communicate here and recall something but let it go at the same time now.
OKAY
I personally believe this topic can conclude that childhood trauma and continous trauma into young adulthood could be a source cause for schizophrenia.
THat, or either I’m a targeted individual and I’m into a ■■■■ton of trouble and my own family is turning on me again.
Same goes for me too,it’s a hell what you went trough.My regards.
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I don’t really remember my first memory, but luckily I have lots of other childhood memories. I don’t know my first childhood memory, though one of the earlier ones I do remember is going to see a pediatrician. I’m not even sure if this was a dream, a false memory, or if it actually happened.
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There isn’t much of my childhood I don’t remember. Wish my memory wasn’t that good.
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Yes,pediatrician!Thanks for bringing me memories!
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Since they have branded me this illness they say my witness to reality could have been screwed up any time in the past also.
This is illegal, if someone is done wrong by another and eventually they become schizophrenic from the continuous torture or some other means their testimony should still be considered witness in testimony of their account in a court of law. The mentally ill and those plagued with schizophrenia aren’t crazy-they’re tortured souls and have the same power of witness as that of a person without mental illness.
I try to keep this in mind.
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