i remember all my psychotic breaks when i have them. my uncle, after his mom died, had a few psychotic breaks (i’m not sure if he has schizophrenia or if it was schizophreniform or brief psychotic disorder. or bipolar), which he doesn’t remember after the fact. ive never heard of that sort of thing, as all the stories i hear the people remember everything.
what about all ya’ll?
I always have spotty memory when it comes to remembering details to my psychotic breaks.
I lose my memory. The last time I was hospitalized I spent 12 hours in the ER and I thought it was 15 minutes. And I don’t remember hardly any of the first 3 or 4 days I was there in the ward.
I had quit my meds. Won’t do that again.
I remember them and feel awful after.
I remember
I try writing them out
That makes my head feel weird
im not sure i ever really got an psychotic break. i just went straight to psychosis. i mean i did have a bad trips on shrooms once where i started hearing voices and thought i was communicating with shamans in the amazon. i guess that was my first psychotic break at age 19. i remember that. but later at about age 26 or 27, without drugs this time, i started hallucinating and i never got relief from the episode for about 3 or 4 years, so i have forgotten much of what the voices said. i still remember some of it, but i have forgotten 95% of the dialogue. maybe that is to be expected when you hallucinate day and night for that long. i just remember being a loner, manic, and a mess. talking to myself to drown out the voices.
I remember them when I write about them in my journal. My earliest breaks when my sza started in 2002/3 I wrote down too but when I got better I got rid of the journals because they were so depressing. I regret that because I lost valuable information I could have used in the writing of my book.
I can’t think or write during psychosis. All I remember is that I was biting pillows because I couldn’t stop the voices, I then swallowed a whole tylenol bottle to die and stop the voices. That was my 1st psychosis before being diagnosed when I didn’t know that pills could stop the voices.
When I’m going through it, I’m afraid to speak about it. The fear is crippling. I can remember as it starts to pass, but can’t let go of whatever conspiracy theory is flowing even as I get better. Last time was really difficult. I could remember most of what happened when it was over objectively, but I was completely helpless and trapped in my psychosis when I was living it. I lose time sometimes, or time moves differently for me when I’m in it. It was really pronounced the last time I was in it, I thought I was at the first hospital for months, but I found out after I was home that I was only there a few days. My brain works and interperates so differently, especially when in deep psychosis. I can remember most things, mostly what I was afraid of. Sometimes things I’m stuck in aren’t scary, I thought I had the ability to heal people when I thought I was a prophet. I felt bad afterwards when I realized the girl I told wouldn’t be. Hopefully God intervened?
I usually forget with sometimes remembering having dealt with it but not knowing what…
I have them so much, it’s imossible to remember it all.
My memory gets pretty spotty around them. I remember some things, but sometimes that’s not what actually happened, like false memories. Sometimes, when people remind me then I can remember more details, but not always, unfortunately.
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