I’ve kind of said this before but I’m afraid that how I am now , is as good as it gets.
Because I’ve been out of hospital for nearly 6 years , my psychiatrist (and myself) are very reluctant to mess with success by changing meds.
So I’m stuck. There is no more progress to be made. Which is a bit of a downer.
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Trying to come to terms with some of that right now too.
I’m feeling worlds better than I was, than I used to be. But it’s far from perfect.
There’s grief, working the stages I think. Hurts when we’re reminded by a flair in symptoms.
I don’t know if it gets better for any of us, but there is still hope, and action, we can always still try.
You isolate like I do, right? Would it help to get out?
I used to but it’s just a chore/a hassle. It’s unpleasant.
I just think I’m at the end of the recovery road.
Yeah, but having life experiences is showing improvement. And recovery isn’t always huge strides in improvement. Sometimes recovery comes in small increments over a long period pf time. You really don’t know that you won’t get better. You may not improve in every area of your life but it’s entirely possible to improve in certain areas of your life.
Yeah I think that’s also just part of growing up ie even non schiz people experience this.
In all seriousness, I don’t know if it’s the end of our roads, there are still options, maybe ones we’re not seeing clearly right now.
I don’t want to give up yet, even though I am so frustrated. I still have pills I can try, Therapies I’ve not tried, tools being developed.
You’re worth it dude, Please don’t give up, that path gets dark quick.
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Yeah. Maybe you’re right. I need to do a bit of soul searching.
If it helps…
You opening this thread helped me process some of my own soul searching. Talking to you has reinforced some of the fight in me.
That’s something positive you’ve done.
Thank you.
Yes you’re right, and that’s been happening I guess.
My psychiatrist said this to me.
She feels that I won’t get any better.
According to her, this as good as it gets.
Oh no not at all because it’s not a recovery any more. It’s merely a matter of keeping stable, I’m starting to have cognitive problems, and I barely care.
I feel broken spirited when I watch the provider’s granddaughter being raised in a much more human way than I was. It is so hard to bare. Jealousy can be a very painful thing. I’m trying to just rejoice in the fact that she’s a beautiful and healthy child and keep my personal life out of it. Hard to do.
I think everybody’s right though.
You have to keep fighting and hope for small improvements over time.
We’ve no choice ! 
It’s funny you say that. Someone I know recently complained that his career was basically now as far as he could go.
I know what you mean @PinCushion . I envy those that had a more “humane” upbringing too.
I get frustrated by my lack of progress. I want to do things to improve myself but it’s one step forward and two steps back.
I was told nearly 20 years ago, when asking for and being refused more help , that the key to coping with my illness was accepting the level that I’m at .
All the time. But, I havn’t exactly put myself in the best environments for making good progress. I also have trouble remembering many things.