Sometimes it feels like my body isn’t mine. Like I don’t know how touchy the “gas” and “breaks” are, can’t stay upright because walking doesn’t totally make sense, etc.
It doesn’t happen a lot, but it has happened.
I’m wondering if it’s part of dissociation related to PTSD (what I was told it was), a leftover from some drug habits (some more recent than others, but assume all the things have been used), or part of psychosis.
It ultimately doesn’t matter much. Maybe I’d just feel better if it was a thing I didn’t do to myself. Or if I knew my current meds can prevent it.
Yes, I have felt like my body is someone else. Someone whom I didn’t know how to deal with so I internalized him, made him myself and found that, at that point, myself had gone numb.