There are two types of people diagnosed with schizophrenia; there are schizophrenic people and there are people who have schizophrenia. There is a huge difference. I love telling this little story. A schizophrenic person is controlled and therefore defined by the illness, it is their number one observable trait. A person who has schizophrenia doesnt let it get to them, fights it with all they can muster, and lives a good life despite it.
I don’t let this illness define me. In fact, I try to make it my bitch. They say medicated schizophrenics are lazy, out of shape and dont have occupations. I am jacked as ■■■■, I have done all sorts of sports, powerlifting, martial arts, bodybuilding, running, cycling, these days I am bodybuilding with some old pals from junior high. There is video in the creativity forum of me lifting 505lbs six times. I weighed 171lbs when I did that. I have a cumulative 3.8 GPA, factoring in my first year when I was not on meds or even diagnosed. I havent made a B on my transcript since I got on meds.
I have friends, I see my family often, I date people looking for the right one, someone who can handle me and isnt scared of me, and I think this guy I have started dating is a keeper, he knows about my condition and is very sweet. And yeah Im bisexual and leaning towards gay, I am a 21 year old man. I prefer the company of men. No offense to women but my psyche is very masculine and so far only other men can actually accept me. I look intimidating, I am muscular and have a military grooming style, a buzz cut and clean shaven, and I wear a lot of black and skulls and that sort of stuff. But I am 5ft 7in, I am the height of most girls.
Never let this illness define you. Just don’t accept that. There are too many adjectives besides “schizophrenic” that apply to me. Do keep in mind that I am not medication-resistant, my meds work pretty well and I am compliant with treatment. I suggest doing the same- I used to be in denial and I was not healthy back then.
I think of schizophrenia like a disease and nothing more. It can be beat. There are treatments. It does carry a stigma, lots of people do not understand the severity of schizophrenia and some dont even know what it is. The truth is that it is a waking nightmare that will never end until your blood level of tranquilizers is high enough or you die. I think getting enough major tranquilizers my body is the better option.
You really should join a support group- I went to the local NAMI group a couple of times but I was so highly functioning that it made me feel a little depressed seeing people who were quite ill. They are accepting and they are on your side- support groups are a great place for some people, if anything you will learn that you are not alone.
Just accept that you will have to live a different life than normal people. I am about to take my morning medications with breakfast, I have to take my antipsychotic twice a day with plenty of food. That is inconvenient and obnoxious. I dont feel hungry right now but have to eat a full meal. But that is worth sanity. I have to keep a little pillbox with all of my meds in it when I leave the house. I ingest six pills a day to keep it all under control. I get tired and need to drink caffeine to function. Sometimes I drink caffeine then take a nap. If you are wondering how I workout so hard, I take special weightlifting stimulants called “pre-workouts” which you mix with water. They stimulate the hell out of the brain and body.