I used to care about everybody, and I was a sucker and treated like ■■■■ by a lot of different people when I was younger.
Now I have less to do with other people, and I am protected by this both mentally, emotionally and financially.
My family are all who’s left now, and I care about them deeply.
However, I am now bound by a personal policy of not repeating past mistakes, so I have made it very hard for others to find me and connect as I am very suspicious of peoples intentions, because I have to be as I recognise I am not the best at social stuff and can be easily taken advantage of
I wish things were different.
One day I might leave my current environment, and find some nice people who can prove me wrong, but I am stuck in this rut for a long time now, and never really recovered my trust in others
I’ve been making charitable donations, but now that I’m involved with a guy again and have new financial commitments, I’m not going to be able to donate as much now. Mainly I need to payoff my funeral Pre-Arrangement with the funeral home before I have to go to the nursing home.